Monday, June 05, 2006

Somehow i felt good and lively in my heart.

Yeah, i knew this was the moment. The self-realization that she will never come back to you again. Even i moved a mountain or carry 10 tonnes of grains for her..haha! Anyway in a serious tone, i know i did everything i can, yes everything i can do to try to touch her heart again, let her fall in love with me again. I couldn't do much more, after all i am a mere human. This is the latter i am chosing now. To chose to be happy, not just to chose..is letting my heart chose freely. Without any pressure on me, telling me to forget her. I just can easily, say..hey i am not missing you anymore. After a year, days and nights of drifting back to e past, letting her know that i will wait for her through letters, smss, and even present. She just wouldn't brave the moment to meet me and talk it out, instead MSNed me..well if that's what she wanted, i respect her. I think, the moment came when she told me. Telling me to stop, telling whatever concern i gave to her, she do not need it. Initally i was sad for the next few days. Who wouldn't, after spending a year on a lost love. But after some thoughts and went to CHC Emerge 2006, i felt something different. There is a world out there to breathe and fight for! Friends to make, a life to make out of and many things. Amen. oh yeah, i hope she read that email..goodbye sy and helloo to my new world!

Naruto @ Monday, June 05, 2006

ramens with extra chili sauce~yumms.