Sunday, February 12, 2006

Brooding pain

As Im typing this now, my back is in pain. Well, i was on the bed, lying for the whole day so i guess i have to sit up abit. I learnt a few things from this current pain. Health is very important. Family ties are very important as well. And being scare of something is a common thing for human. And lastly, never goes against Heaven wills! Sounds im losing confidence yah, esp the part of "never goes against Heaven wills"

My pain became worse on Friday night esp after my afternoon nap. I cannot take the pain anymore hence i asked my mum to bring me to A&E for x-ray. Well the doc say its just back pain so gave me some pain killers and cream.

Well, the next day i went to my tie da, and after looking at the x-ray she say, the verebrates at the end of my spinal is very dangerously pressing to each other. The lucky thing is that it did not press the nerve or else, my legs will become numb. Hearing this, i went stunned. During the tie da session, she adjusted my spinal, stating by adjusting the verebrates the pain will decrease. During the session, i remember it was around this time last year, i was at here too. How ironic is that.This morning, i woke up. The pain was unbearable, unable to sit or stand up at all. This make me realised, how a Back can be so important to a human being.

During this time, my family esp my mum helped me alot. Its like time stopped. I am still in 2002, during the time i broke my ankle. I am indebted to my family. How can i repay them? After my recovery of my back, I hope i will able to treat them better!

I was scared, i unable to walk. I am still scare. God, please help me. I believe, i am fated not to play soccer. So many clues yet i still taking for granted. So i guess now this is the ultimate last chance to change my stance. I surrender. From now on, i will not play any soccer unless those just touch and go with my sister or kids. Please let me fulfill this promise Lord.

Its terrible of me, when i am ok i am a distance from God. Then when things happened, i went begging. To err is human i guess. After this, i will learn to go nearer to my religion. Amen

Naruto @ Sunday, February 12, 2006

ramens with extra chili sauce~yumms.