Sunday, June 04, 2006

The day i long awaited for..

I know one day she will contact me..i just know that. Well she did after all. Few days back, on the 30th i think. She MSNed me while i was chatting with my friends. Stunned, shocked and very surprised when i saw her email on the msn window. I thought it was someone else initally but it was her. Too shocked to react, i thought of the scenarios why would she want to contact me. In my heart, i wish she wanted to keep in touch with me but it proved otherwise. Yes i knew, she would not attempt to contact me unless..After 1 year and 1 month of not keeping in touch, i felt strange. It was like, i always thought of her almost every days and nights and i always wish that she will return back to my side someday or maybe become friends. Those memories always difted back to me, on the places we went etc..although we had a short time together, still it was a relationship that was hard to move on.

After much hestiation i began to chat. From the begining, she spoke her mind. In short, she wanted me to stop all the contacting, the gifts, cards. I was shocked when she say that and curious why she took so long till now..As the last moment i contacted her was the card i sent, that was 1 mth + ago..and the things she say was some months ago i did. From what i see, she just couldn't take it anymore. I guess she would think, that was the limit. aha..So in the end, she just took the initative to MSNed me. It came out of the blue and went off in a flash too..without much talk, she was offline. Forever.

There were two ways for me to react. Be sad or happy. I chosed the former. The way she confronted me was not new but after a year she still has that cold hearted in the way of doing things made me sad. After all, we had a love relationship that happened only once or twice in a person life. I was very sad. I thought contacting her once again will be a happy thing. We will be embracing with each other in the name of love. Am i just too naive and romantic..haha!! She gave me 4 mins, of conversation and leave my heart broken once again. I felt that was unfair to me. Couldn't she just tell me earlier..saying that, whatever you do, i will never be touch again. Letting me in a loss for a year..that was a cruel thing to do. But i know love is blind and there are no rights and wrongs in a relationship.

Naruto @ Sunday, June 04, 2006

ramens with extra chili sauce~yumms.