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Ending of this blog

2007-12-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah just drop by to say goodbye to my blog. 2008 is coming and i should say well let it come, shoo the bad moments and welcome the goodies !! This blog accompanied me for 2 years since 2005, thru the ups and downs and some of the drafts hold many secrets too. I will not delete it but put aside just like a piece of treasure in a good hiding place. When i feel like touching it again, just log in and read.

2007 has been kind to me. : )

It is like a cycle. There are friends to make, keep and leave behind. Hopefully 2008 there will be more of the former.

Learnt many things and know that my learning curve is just sooo at the beginning of the tip. Will jia you!!!!!!!

Though my ankle still not fully recover but i know 2008 will be the turning year! The year of fitness for me! I will and thou shall do it ! hee!

Ok then..byebye my lovely blog.

Welcome my new blog soon..shall be a secret this time after all blog is a personal dairy from the start.

To mae

2007-06-30T16:08:00.000+08:00

During the last six months, we comforted, helped and encouraged each other when we were quite down at heart.

I remember the first song she sent me was from elvis and many songs in this new lappy was from her later..

We went out for outings together. Had luffers and funz.

We would disturb each other, tickle or even beat each other, kaoz..crazy girl hah.

She cannot blame me that i like her because there is no right or wrong in liking someone

I just want the friend that been thru a lot with me this year to be with me on my birthday. Maybe that caused the most of the tension

I told her my darkest secrets. I trusted her alot.

Thru the night, she really encouraged, helped me alot by punching my left shoulder many times. ouchz..

Then I made a mistake of intruding her personal space. Made her uneasy about it.

I am sorry about it. Really. Learnt to control myself next time.

The past failures made me more mature in handling this now. Last time I would be quite upset and moody but now I can said I coping well n good.

Maybe we discussed much about ourselves and particularly on me. oh work and sch play a part too.

Simple and sweet, I cherish and appreciate this friendship more than my liking on her.

Truthfully, I never have this kind of friendship before. Like the platonic friends in the Tommy Page mv " Shoulders to cry on"

Realised that there are many angles in looking at one matter.

I cannot force someone to like me the way I wanted, why not I accept the kind of friendship love she given to me

We may be still friends but the magic and closeness of it might disappear. I do not want the concern, care, laming, di-siaoing, slapping etc to be missing..definitely not the moment i can grab ur palm and feel it lol..( just kidding, trying to be lighthearted abit here ) damn u, i just remember you actually grabbed my breast that night. o_O

I do not wish the lose the magical feeling. Do you ?

It takes two hands to clap to a great friendship like this. Let it be a continuously applause yeah

Don’t let this mistake of mine ruin our friendship while neither do I want to stress you too.

I am not sure what do you think of this, or i might be thinking much again but frankly i had got over it and all these are true. Just so to let you know this..

Sure. how sure? Very sure. ;p

till then : )

Pretenders

2007-06-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

After the trip from PU, I found out that louis is a playboy, who sleeps around and likes to talk bad about his friends. What happened was while I was resting in the other tent during the night; i overheard some of the conversation between G.Z and him. They were talking about girls. I am ok with that as a guy because I do that too but what louis say next disgusted me.

He just wants to know any girls just to have sex with them, describing to G.Z about the girls he made use of and how he know them, sweet talk them and most importantly deceiving them that he was harmless, funny and good to be with then slowly gain the girl trust and lastly try to bed her or take advantage of her.

Later in the next morning, Adrian told me something more about him. As he was in the same tent with him, I have not doubts about his words. Moreover, Adrian is a guy I can trust with my eyes closed as both of us went through a lot during army time together. He told me not to trust him; I was perplexed and asked him to explain it.

Adrain explained during the night, louis kept talking bad about the friends he had, why they got big ass, their characters etc “she thinks she very pretty but to me, she is so ugly but still I need to pretend, said good things about her when I am in front of her”

He stated, this type of person is too fake. Imagine that when he is with other friends, what kind of bad stuffs he can think of to said about you. He told me if next time got outing, please don’t ask him along.

Come to think of it, all the time he was talking and sticking to Yuen Mae. Not really talking to yuling etc. Trying to hitch her even I told her that she is my friend. Showed no respect to me and her at all. To think that Yuen Mae was talking to him so happily without knowing his dirty mind.

What a pretender, to think that I supported him much during the army time.

Despicable. Hai..just my luck to know him. At least now i know what kind of person he is. Oh, i felt bad and worried for Yuen Mae as he got to know her, the only female during the trip. I just hope Yuen Mae wouldn’t be so naïve. I would avoid this type of guy if I am her. There is no point having him as a friend.

And of cos, he attended acting classes before, thats why so good in faking.

I am thinking, did I over-reacted?
No, not at all. And I am not going continue this friendship with him, degrading my integrity if I to be his friend. And moreover, he did not treat me as one.

Moral of the story : Be careful of the friends you got. U never know when they would actually..stab you.

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Paulyn actually passed me a catalogue of cakes, letting me chose which cake i want. So sweet of her. Nora and her really pampered me alot, aww love them! Treated them lunch yest heh
Will miss them dearly when my contract is finish.

Study in 2 weeks time and finding job now. # #

ah after talking to uncle henry, feeling more motivated to study well. I not sure its destiny or what, but during my work here he fetched me home in the first week while now its the 2nd last week he too fetched me home. aha..

2007-06-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

Looking back to 4 years ago, i was still learning the way. Now i am still learning..tell me what progress i got ? nil

I got to be teachable...

I can do it ! I must !

for my sanity..

Good times bed times hah!

2007-06-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Jus watched a love, sexual comedy on channel U. A movie which starred louis khoo, lau ching wan, sammi cheng and charlene choi. Found out that i have a knack for love movies. funny for a guy..

How louis khoo styled his hair is unbelievable..just don't have the talent to style my hair i guess..

Apparently i spent my evening being a potato in front of the tv. Condor heroes then that movie..jialat..but my mood is much better now.

Sat evening with sow was great. opps ! :p

She totally mesmerised me with her red dress.

Hope her parents did not nag at her else i will feel bad.

Sweaty

2007-06-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

The competitive streak of me arises again.

I should have control myself more..but the sweats cannot stop dripping and at the same time pulling me.

In the end, kneecaps, thighs and a toe in blister. phew..luckily no major incident which ended with a win for us ! heh

Must restrict myself thou i know the sweaty cells inside me waiting for to implode! : (

reflections

2007-06-03T10:08:00.000+08:00

Lee yen or should i say Lee wen, what a nice name. She told me only a few people in the co know it. Anyway she shared with me alot of herself thru msn and over the dinner we had, i cannot believe that she trusted me so much after all we just know each other. Its fate i guess, few yrs back we only knew each other by names yet now sharing personal issues between us.

After knowing her, i come to reflect myself more in depth..I can be jovial, funny, lame whatsoever but most of the time inside me..i am an empty soul. Maybe i am making myself silly, fun just to hide my weakness. Strong on outside but weak in the inside ?Just like her, i need someone, not just anyone of course who can be my friend, understand me, give me moments of care concern and love me of who i am.

A typical human being, humane after all. I need someone beside me, in everything i do yet i am scare of getting hurt again..how ironically. I am such a cancerian guy..

Then again i will remember what liyun told me. Don't be too emotional..

Am i so untrustworthy ? I gave someone something yet the person don't believe that there was something for her. I wrote someone something yet the person don't believe that its for her in the first place and i called someone, the person say i just finding topics to talk to pass time.

Was kinda sad when she showed that so..but glad & happy that the art piece was given. I hope she like it.

From a call 4 days later that hurted me badly, I found out that my heart needs a new breathe of air..else i will be suffering from lethargic effects which i already did. I value that particular thin thread hence i am running away.. *_*

Anyway changed my style.

Strange but true, 4 yrs ago a girl helped me to style abit. I liked it that time but did not dare to try it. Now kinda e same style, well just follow it lah this time! oh my giggsy has retired from international football. Can see him longer in epl then.. : )

Going to apply my studies on monday. God, pls bless me that i am making the right choice !!!

ILLNESS..the sadness of it

2007-05-31T21:42:00.000+08:00

Visited my Lao yi this evening. The period with her was very depressing, found out that her right side of her body still cannot move and some more she got temporary amnesia.

I still remember how good is her memories is and cheerful too. Now its totally opposite. If im alone with her, i will surely cry. Damn..why did the stroke got into her ? I really hope she quickly recover..

While watching the 9pm show about autistic children makes me sad too. People say life is hard but for those people with illness, life is terrible for them. The world is so unfair..I pray hard for family and my health! And my close friends too.

Sigh..June is coming, which happens to be tomorrow. Treasure your love ones particular yourself, don't live to regret the past but look forward to tomorrow. Its hard even i am preaching this but you never know until you try !

Overheard pan ling ling say this from those media corp show " One can have more than one love in life. Ending of one's relationship is the beginning of a new one.."

Mv for myself on Versak Day 07

2007-05-31T14:42:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y2Zlds5Jxck&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5ah_4UmOpw&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCt0qyxCG74 ( brings back fond memories )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kje7NUNebL8&mode=related&search= ( Sad mv with terrific song, sometimes i wish i can just forget everything and go for a holiday )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yg3pmMQyIkM&mode=user&search= ( Wanna go for a concert in the future man )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-l4G5rRJK8U&mode=related&search= (awesome)

Pirates of C

2007-05-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

A very crappy show..simply love it. : )

And a bracelet that seems so sticky on to me..not that im complaining of, haha!

My grreeenn wallet + a marvellous belt. : )

I just realised that with a hairband on, i look sooo yandao. whaha..bhb!

Exciting week and a prayer

2007-05-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

mm..when I joined this company i thought it would be jus a normal data entry job but I was wrong. ACtually my job is not jus data entry, its sort of like a marketing job. Yes precisely, needs to think alot. Combining all the data in this company and think. REally burn off the rusty cells i have filled during my ns life. Still burning thou..

Anyway tomorrow i will be gg night Safari! All due to the VIP for our dept audit which precisely why i was hired. My 2nd immediate manager Mary will bring him to safari which conveniently some of my dept members and i will tag along. heh...I guess this time i will get to see a new safari, heard it got some changes.

Day after tmr, will be having the audit dinner. Woah, jus 10 of us for this MRC project eating at some classy restaurant near One Fullerton if i am not wrong. Sounds great..interesting for me, i am just a temp contract worker. Seriously, i don't mind working full time here. Work is allright for me for now but the lure is the people in this company. They are quite frenly esp the inner circle. hahaa..can i? mm..

Ok the last exciting event issss...FA cup final on sat !! yes yes ~ There is a chance of dom and yuling coming to my hse to watch it. Nice ! Of cos manu shd win this !! i hope !

Last thing on my mind should be her but for the past few days keep thinking of her. mm came to this decision. I have to move on. Will be tossing off the present for her. Thinking about it how foolish am i, waited for 2 years for this, to call her! ( sort of anyway ) and on the last moment i decided to move on. How sad but then..life goes on! : ) I will only get stronger !
Every time when i watch the Condor heroes showing now on Channel U, i will feel good but abit of sadness. How yang guo love his gu gu and xiao long nu searching for him too is sooo..romantic. How i wish in this modern world, that i can experience this kind of love. haha...yes i did for the guy part thou..rubbishing now.

Did you watch Engine last esp? If not pls go..showing how a person should live in this world. mm..

Yeah that's about it for this week i guess..

Praying hard that my lao yi will get well. She got this major stroke.. :(

kidz

2007-04-29T16:45:00.000+08:00

I just realised i like children alot. Daniel is the name of the sec 5 guy i am going to tutor this coming june plus banja-ing those kids i played soccer with at mac. Damn cute those kids..

Mayyyyy

2007-04-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

WOah! It will be May soon.

Made my choice, yay! Even in the end if it is a wrong decision i will not regret because i did all the neccessary steps before i make this decision. Asked many people including a financial advisor, a banker, a director with MBA and many friends, i think the uni i chosed is the best choice for me. I mean it is better than i chose without thinking and asking around. Hence at least i tried my best to do something for myself.

Spent the last few days doing this task made me damn stress and tired, finally it is over. Got some time for myself liao. Come Aug, studies again ! and work too ! A test of endurance man !

mm..slacken on my ankle therapy. : ( Arghh..04 till 07, been 3 years..Come on! it is time to make it ! ! ! Really i must do it.

In some ways, LY attracts me alot. Maybe the fact that she is a good/clever/nice girl but well i don't know her well. Nevertheless, she is a big sister to me. haha..how Fate pulls strings around. Every years D&D will get to see her but never had a chance to chat with her.

Was at her workstation looking at the pics from past years D&D. Saw this pic and i commented that was qt long ago. She replied yes and said she even remember me that was first time she saw me and that was 3 or 4 years ago! I remember of cos but acted blur..at that time, she was very pretty, now still also lah..oh she remember me from that time! haha...tot she never notices me at all.

Cannot believe it and if she is younger than me i will definitely make my move coz she is the type i like. LOL..da-jie that's what i will call her instead. hahaa..

For now let me enjoy this remaining 2 mths talking n seeing her during lunch break..heh...oh shit, very idiotic of me i guess but heck..I like can liao! whahah..

Her exams is coming to an end next week after 2 years, finally eh..i wish it can still continue so i will have a longer time to erases her from my mind, not that i want thou. Sometimes i wish at that time i did not do that so maybe now got a chance..the funny thing is that she was the one at fault not me..haiz..

Tonite is Engine last espi ? Tot it was last week but never mind, i rather it will never end. Quite emotional for last week espi esp the way they parted. Shall enjoy today ! Swimming tmr again, this time alone..mm, its ok for me coz i dun like to interact when exercising.

Faith

2007-04-24T06:08:00.000+08:00

What is faith?

–noun
1.
confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.
2.
belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.
3.
belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion: the firm faith of the Pilgrims.
4.
belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.
5.
a system of religious belief: the Christian faith; the Jewish faith.
6.
the obligation of loyalty or fidelity to a person, promise, engagement, etc.: Failure to appear would be breaking faith.
7.
the observance of this obligation; fidelity to one's promise, oath, allegiance, etc.: He was the only one who proved his faith during our recent troubles.
8.
Christian Theology. the trust in God and in His promises as made through Christ and the Scriptures by which humans are justified or saved. —Idiom
9.
in faith, in truth; indeed: In faith, he is a fine lad.

Another step in taking a big leap again. Might be the biggest of all in my life but then it wouldn't be if I had not taken the first step. Sometimes in life, you don't even have choices hence you just have to make do with it. I hope I can make the right choice.

Talked to shano yest. Hmm, still as cute as the past of her. She was happy to hear from me ! I am too of cos ! We talked like old friend nia and we managed to remember some of the small but important details, hahaha...Wondered how she looks like now, would she be the same energetic girl I saw in the camp ? We agreed on meeting each other soon, after so long..wow.

Wonderful night

2007-04-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to say but it felt good to have some pampering you, being cared at. Just someone giving you the attention, the full attention of it. Yes yes. Although it happens once a very blue moon but still..as they say too much of good things kinda making you not appreciate of life.

Unforgettable night. = ) Wouldn't want to think too much of it too, this time I shall enjoy the moment. Awesome, crazy, wild, all the positive adjective in the dict. At the end of it, feeling really happy for the first time in 2007. Amazed that I could withstand the work for today too and now I am still typing..gosh~

Swimming/tanning tmr with zhao and adrain. heh

Ah..Today is Engine last espi if I am not wrong. Go go go!

off to show

Virginia Tech massacre

2007-04-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

I was shocked when I saw this news on the newpaper frontpage. Haiz, why did he do that? And the 33 people were damn unlucky, their family must be feeling very terrible now. Hope they are strong man.

Let's give a minute of slient for the victims.

Working life and my shooting star !

2007-04-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

After 2 years + in my national service that consisted of duties ( yes i am free from that!), guarding my camp, doing administrative stuffs, managing people and shits..i came to an another phrase in life, that is Office life.

Learnt that one needs to drink 2 cups of coffee to stay awaken to do my job. Maybe its hard to adapt now ..

Learnt that a newcomer in the office is somehow like going to a lion den but as days goes by, it will be much simplier i guess.

Learnt that working is tiring and when you feel like talking to someone, the one infront of you who is 20 years older than you is not free to chat or haven familiar to each other yet. Not like in the army, one can easily chat to each other like bros.

Wearing office wear is somehow nice. heh

Anyway the 2 ladies in my sector were talking damn grossly dirty stuffs today..cannot believe it ! Why sia? maybe when a female gets older, she becomes more XXX. LOL

Bought a pant and 2 shirts last sat and another t-shirt today, yeah! Somehow i like my job, getting to finish my work fast and got that sense of satisfaction. mm Grey aeroplane t-shirt is kinda sweet & nice, jus so fits into me too. If got more lobang pls tell me yeah..ya shd know who you are. : )

Shooting star

When I look at the sky,

I see all the stars twinkling.

They are like the people of this planet,

all emitting different types of light.

I want stand out in that crowd, and shine brighter than everyone else.

I close my eyes and swear.

I entrust my dream to a shooting star.

This is the park I always go to.

I can watch the night scenery from the slide.

Since long ago ts been my own special seat.

Whenever I have troubles, I always come here.

Even since that time, I've been chasing my dream.

Even now, it hasn't come true.

Maybe this is the end.

What a weak voice I speak in.

There are days when i feel bitter about it.

But then I'll remember

looking for the shooting stars in that starry sky.

The wish that I made when I was small
hasn't changed with the passage of time.
When I look at the sky,
I see all the stars twinkling.
They are like the people of this planet, all emitting different types of light.
I want to stand out in that crowd,
and shine brighter than everyone else.

Yea,

I close my eyes and swear. I entrust my dream to a..

Shooting star

The ending song from naruto, the new series. Oh i saw a shooting star before..How nice if i can see one again!
Naruto is never a childish animation instead it is a story about friendship, true heartwarming friendship that can make you think what is actually in life to be all about. I jus love it

Time to live for myself

White wine..

2007-04-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

How the hell of half bottle of white wine can make ya tipsy is beyond me..anyway im turning in now.

Goodnitez to myself...

A little bit of nervous and a little bit of stress

2007-04-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

Well i did the unthinkable again. Fired my manager just after 1 day of work. hah..Abit sad coz the colleages were quite nice to me. Hmm hopefully that doesn't come back to haunt me ! Seriously i don't mind working there, to train my sales talk which am v poor at it.

Tmr will be working as a 3 mths temp contract at that OFFICE ! God blesss me man. I guess the stress level will be much higher and i need to behave myself. Cannot anyhow play play and must do well ! Just like a good old Jeffrey ! Somehow the nervous disease is eating into me now, like tmr is coming in a few hours time. Hmm..stress man..putting my facade on again.

How i wish i can share this with someone now, almost all my friends are busy with their life. Nvmind there is always Lonewolf to accompany me, how ironic that I kept him as my idol 10 years ago and now he is my motivator. haha...10 years later still the same old Jeffrey.. =)

Mm..missed Mrs Tan death anniversary due to my ankle and that reason! Now writing this is useless man! @#$% quick come may then adeline and I will pay Mr Tan a visit !

Ok tmr night, i will go thru the SIM documents i took back and need to decide by the 18th ! !

Good Friday

2007-04-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

Attended two services on friday, yes its Good Friday. First time been soo religious about this day. Well, I went to St Mary of the Angels for the morning service with my family. Its nice to have the whole family going to the church =) Then later I went to expo to meet jon for the chc service cum drama. Hmm, as usual it is a very "loud" service and quite interactive too. The drama was nice as well esp the renactment of Jesus being..

At that time, I become more understanding of the sentence " Jesus died for us so we can live " sort of the meaning..like how your parents will protect you.

Oh well..i met e99 cell grp after 3 mths. Mm i am quite dao. Felt bad too but..i just cannot be as the usual Jeffrey infront of them liao..esp that scene. hai..how paiseh was I at that time in the hospital. Nice to meet them again..

Oh..

Good moments will end, it is just the matter of time. Yeah you will be sad and misses them when its over but still life goes on..

Treasure the good times and try to keep it in a journal hence you can relate to them when you are 80 yrs old : p

Two days more will be Easter Sunday..

Fitness is slowly back

2007-04-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yah, I went to des house go gym today. Well..for me personally i got a few good frens and she is one of them. Always doing the unconventional ways of things, thats what i like abt her..( still i tink there is a X-file doc on her lol, must ask her tmr )

Gyming at her house today was good..she mentioned i am becoming thinner. Shucks..Eat more Jeffrey, don't think so much, don't brood, eat more , think more positive stuffs, luff more and you will get fat like pri 2 times! haha..

Life was soo easy then..

anyway tmr gg to swim, hopefully the weather is good ! I want some vit D!

After talking to joel, both of us felt better..Bro, jia you ! Thou you will not be looking at this, somehow i know I know you know ! hah..lame..

Logging off now.... .. .. . . .. . .. .. . .. . .. . .well, i hope some people's behaviour like e fun loving side of her will remains the same as before because the last few days i been too emotionally wrecked due to joel matter and some stuffs hence might caused some misunderstanding between us.

Peace !

Some of the nono's that in a bgr faced

2007-04-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

Talked to shu yang this noon..and found out some stuffs. Yeah i know some but from her real life experiences reminded me again.

1) Either partner should never be sticky. Example the girl is facing her exams now, the guy shouldn't really keep calling her everyday for contact. That will make the girl feel that the guy damn sticky and dont know how to prioritise.

2) Either partner should try to be sensitive to each other, if not try to communicate well and solve it. Example, her ex disliked her to hang out with her make friends but the point is her majority of friends are guys. Apparently this continued for quite some time till after the broke up, she took this issue very seriously when considering of patching back.

3) Compatibility issue. Well i hate this word.

Anyway for me it all falls on how long the couple been together in order to find out more of each other but then again in order to have a couple together, there must be some compatibility in it in the first place. So pls don't use "total" incompatibility as an excuse for a break off.

The usual way of meeting your next possible gf/bf

Being friends with each other.

1) Slowly find out each other then it will goes to 2) , 3) or 4)

2)-There are infatuations falling between each other ( The 1st step to a casual relationship)

3)-The guy got a serious infatuation on the girl while of cos, the girl don't know it. All the while the friendship is still on-going. ( The most usual case in a heartbroking scene in korean shows but its true )

4)- Both the girl and guy feels that nahz, jus been friends can liao. That will goes to 5) or 6)

5) After friends for years, that become good friend status for them. ( Yeah, kinda nice seriously)

6) Jus for the sake of saying we are friends, slowly both of them will drift away.. . . . ..

Jeffrey's defination of Casual relationship, there are huggings, kissings etc like in a long relationship.

1)I supp the trick is to treat ur inital partner in the most non-serious way as you still ticking compatibility checkboxes to see whether how compatibility are both of you. That is call having a casual relationship. (mm, i never had a compatibility checkbox list before and i guess i try not to coz seems soo..not like in love but like a bot )

2) After the first step which i think will last like 3 months, both of you should know by now. Add up the ticks and you will see the result !

3) Ok, maybe the male partner sees his result as "wow, so many ticks. that's good..maybe she is the one" while the girl result was totally opp from the guy and she slowly drifted off.Here is how a casual relationship blown off.

Hmm..there is something to think about for this casual relationship status.

How would the guy/girl know that "hey, we are in a casual relationship now" ? Maybe the girl thinks that "I am in a serious relationship" while the guy thinks otherwise..

It would be strange that before going in a casual relationship, both of them would announced " Let's treat this as a casual relationship" It would possibly implies that " this is just a fling, not a serious relationship so don't put too much hope in it.

Hence even before actually going into that relationship, there is already distrust within each other ( if either partner don't really understand the term of casual relationship or the term jus soo not trustworthly ( that's for me ) )

Oh what am i saying now..oh yeah..totally off from the topic !hah..

My good friend joel is facing his worse time in life now, i don't know how to help him. Jus feel sad for him and at the same time, i am sad too.

Some ways to counter in the nono's in a bgr faced

1) Communicate well, tell each other what you are facing now

2) Have a common group of friends ! That's the best possible way i can think. If not, trust her or him..of cos, the girl has to play a part too if she keep acc her guys frens. wouldn't that be kinda weird.

Haiz..its so hard to hao hao tan yi ge lian ai. So many uncertainties and sadness even before a relationship starts

Now there is this song " I can't take my eyes off you " on 93.8. Yeah, a lovely sadness song..I believe that will occur during any infatuations period that a person having.

What a long post..hah..mm its like a flowchart eh..lol
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Yeah its april now. Looking forward for this month !
1) Job !

2) Studies for the future, time to make a decision

3) Concentrate on training my ankle !

4) Muggy on my online cert and that investor seminars ! heh..

5) Wanna goo ecp bike le..not that expressway ! To missie, when ya free ?

Jus some random tots in this yawning noony

2007-04-01T15:43:00.000+08:00

-A big cat scratched me on my left hand yest, fierce!

-I used my butt to open the door then strangely that big cat shook her bum in front of me. Nice shaky bummy there :p

-Someone tried to strangle me and later thinking of stabbing my neck with a butter knife, that called for an attempted murder !

-We saw a horsey yest, kinda cute. Enjoyed the 915 minutes with ya. Did you? ; )

- Am too childish ? Just being myself for the night

-I dreamt of my big thumb being sliced off and some weird dreams :/

- Doing something different this time round starting today

-Logging off now . . . . . ................................................................. .... ..........

Pink IC!

2007-03-29T14:42:00.000+08:00

This post has been delayed for 3 mths! Yes Yes, I finally received my pink IC after 2 years and 2 months of hardships in the national service. After getting it, i was delighted by it and kissed it after out from my base gate ! Grinning from cheek to cheek heh...

mm..took a hike from a contracter van and told him about it! He was happy for me too..! well happiness do spread ! He added this thou, yes he was happy that when he orded too but when outside the world, working..the stress level will be alot more! I agreed with him..

Upon alighting, he wished me good luck and vice versa of me too.

I am totally clueless in the outside world, like a worm crawling to jus have some bite on the green pastures and well..lots of birds hovering above me. Of course, i am scare!

For now, just let me celebrate for this moment of happiness. When out to the real world, then will pia and suffer lol

Need to be strong, humble, a never say die attitude or whatever shits to get thru it ! yeah!! yeah !

Let me recap, on that certain 20th of dec 04 in Tekong..I was walking with the other recruits and on that particular station, there was someone there standing. As each of us passed thru him, we had to pass him our pinky. That's the outrageous part, the passing was jus soo unceremoniously !

Jus like that, each of us pinky would be missing from us for 2 years ! ;((

Now its back with me! heh..yay finally !

Well..maybe its not a big deal to people but yes it means alot to me..the ordeal of finally escape from army means alot to me. Not that I am that sick of it but..maybe jus maybe because of it, my life changed alot..for bad n for the good.

Better late than never, 3 months later than my mates is actually no big deal!

Now my path is clear, its for me to create my own life!

I don't care, i will create the best path for myself!

Yes yes, I still have my ankle problem with me but nevertheless I will make it recover !

And with God's blessing, I can be what i can be !

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-Controlled for 1 week and 1 day ! : ) Continuing !

To missie o.0

2007-03-28T11:30:00.000+08:00

1. An animation freak

2. Move on ! vooommm

3. Black ! You are the first girl i know that likes black

4. Lame-ing with me every now and then ! a companion of mine for that and probably others wha hah !

5. The long hair girl who sat at cannteen 2, reading a book if im not wrong.

6. Vampires lo..hah

7. Whose tongue is longer? =p

8. If I do this for you, you must post this }post{ on ur blog!

To yun!

2007-03-28T11:13:00.000+08:00

1. You surely can graduate this year! Have faith yay! I want to see you in ur squary hat :p

2. Be as intimate as possible with ur bf during the bangkok trip but not excessive ! 0O00

3. 2 colours of a rainbow, coz you always make me laugh when we chatted. =)

4. Frank esp yest at biz canteen we talked abt that that. Shocked am I! hah..but hey, thanks for confiding in me, this shows how dear our friendship is !

5. Well, that happened during my proj days, if im not wrong our first meeting you acc me to buy IC chips at Sim lim tower! hee..

6. Bees?

7. Nothing much le except after your bangkok trip, tell me e details!

8. If I do this for you, you must post this }post{ on ur blog!

If you leave a comment on my taggy..

2007-03-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

1. I'll respond with somethin random about you

2. I'll challenge you to try something

3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you

4. I'll tell you something I like about you

5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you

6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of

7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you

8. If I do this for you, you must post this }post{ on ur blog!

A long day out~

2007-03-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

Its been a few months since i went out window shopping, movie and chilling at some cafes. Managed to do that today and well caused my poor ankle suffering now. Thanks to someone who guided me from one part of orchard to another way further part ! haha...

300, a freaking nice movie, full of bloody scenes and omg fighting styles and tactics! I am goin to buy this movie as a keep sake! Ah, got nude scenes too hahah! The girl beside me was loving it, amazed ! Oh she was enjoying e bloodi scenes i mean..about the sexual ones, not so sure..so are you? ;p

Learnt one phrase " Because I am kind" yaya..ego manic guy who said that from the movie. Its funny to use that thou..heh

Anyway since after my ORD, i never enjoyed my freedom at all till now! The air of freedom is delicious! yummy yummy!

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Dear God, i wish my ankle quickly recover so i can go work soon.

Dear God, sometimes i wish my ankle did not occurred that accident before

Dear God, growing up is hard you know..how i wish i am the 9 years old little boy again where Mrs Tan would always look after me and i can play n play..

yeah..I know why i am saying all this now and why i keep enjoying my life..because i am sort of under a kinda depression. Its like my ankle is actually keeping my life from evolving better..

Its like..i want to do that yet cannot..do this yet cannot..

Keeping myself from turning into a wreck, i just continue to enjoy my life doing some informative stuffs like papers, stocks yet..But i know this is not the time to do that..

Need a fucking plan...to start off my life soon!

"Stay motivated despite trying circumstances: There's no doubt that world can be frustrating, but remember that you can choose your response to your environment. If you make a conscious decision to begin each day with a positive outlook, negative conditions at work can't take that away from you. Aim to increase your self-awareness so you can better understand your emotional hot buttons."

I hate that blooodi guy who did that to me! yes i hate him..I always thinking of extracting my revenge on him..but i know i should not do that..

If one day..i manage to seee him again, I hope that day wouldn't come...or am i hoping it?

Dreaming

2007-03-21T10:26:00.000+08:00

There is a chinese phrase where I can related to yesterday night. I forgot what is that call but the meaning is like you keep thinking about it until you dream about it, something so surreal like the song wu ne wei li. : (

I miss the X'mas atmosphere in..

2007-03-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

How wonderful will one be to feel the X'mas atmosphere in a church! The nice relaxing cheerful songs, consist of x'mas carols, piano playing and the people atmosphere where you can actually feel yeah, it will be cheerful occasion today!

I missed 06 X'mas due to my recuperation at home..so when I went to church today and felt the solemen yet peaceful surrounding and suddenly out came a nice song which sounded like a christmas song..i feel sad that i missed it..

I need to be more firm about my religious as I become older..

Tao Pi, running away = failure ?

2007-03-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

After watching episode four of Engine, I am speechless again. Ok let's list down in point forms for me to read easily when I want to relate it again

-- This cute little fatty is goddamn cute especially his side-view smile, omg..am i a child grabber? lol

--The main actress as usual made my eyes strained because of the constant staring at her! Esp when her reaction to the death angel of sticking to each driver when racing remark by another lady. Nice!

--Well after watching each espisode on friday really make my night high! Yeah not those high! Its the spiritually, mentally high lol. Today this main character told this cute fatty that, running away is being a failure.

I wonder how true is that because if that so, alot of people are failure and that's including me.

Successful people takes failure in their strides and continue their believe in their ways of life. Instead of running away, they face it directly. I got this friend, he actually take some time of his life learning to write using both of his hand, as the usual person would just stick to their preferred hand. Strange as it sounds, I like him alot maybe his thinking is damn fucking positive!

Let's not run away and face our problems shall we! That's including relationship, work, spiritual life and many more. Again, if we face all of it, wouldn't we be tired? I guess so, that's why people run away from their problems...

But at least this episode reminds me that running away is not a solution. hehe..oh that fatty went on to face his problem..nice ending eh. Yeah i will try not to run away !

Van, you should try too esp on ur relationship ache ! oh enjoyed the time today, hope you too. Pls stop the teacher behaviour although it was nice to see you acting. muahha

Delighted or negative feelings?

2007-03-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Should I be delighted or worry myself after today?

Today I went for my doctor appointment and well, he answer in a very politicially way for the pain on my ankle.

He asked me whether do I still feel e original pain in my ankle, i said no. Then what pain do i have not? I pointed him about the areas that i feel the pain.

He replied, that's good. Since the original pain is gone, that operation is successful. While the pain you having now are the operation pain, it will recover soon. He noted that recovery rate for bone injury is much faster than tendon/ligament injury.
The latter is 3 to 6 months time. Oh yeah, the next appointment is 3 mths time so add together from the operation, i will have a 6 mths period of recovery.

He added, i can have my normal life back, go out work etc..yeah i am happy that he said that but kinda have this worrying mindset that why do i still have this pain. Cannot blame me that I do not really trust the doctor after the exp i had.

Really, I don't wish to have any operations already. I had enough..I hope my ankle can just recover and i will walk with a good pair of legs.

Oh I bought a $85 ankle brace, damn ex right but it helps alot.

It come to my mind that, if an optimistic guy will take the news happily while on the other hand a pessimistic guy will take the negative news gravely.

So what am I?

haha...no choice this is my 2nd operation after all. I need to smile at it !

God bless me!

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Saw this at msn just now!

Could you stop spending for a month?

That sense of empowerment infused many participants' appraisal of their experiences. Even those who fell off the wagon early and often -- like Nicole, who had to move unexpectedly during the month -- said the experiment taught them that they usually have options to spending money.

"I think what I've learned can only help me in the future," wrote Nicole, who lives near Washington, D.C. "That if I decide to do something, I can do it, and that I can make do with what I've got."

Falling off the wagon Most of us, by the way, couldn't get through the whole month without an unnecessary purchase. Some beat themselves up for their lapses, while others thought their off-the-plan purchases were justified, like a celebratory dinner out after hearing about a promotion or a great deal on carpeting they just couldn't let pass.

Some stayed strong even with grave temptation. Underwood, for example, wrote that his hardest challenge was attending a free seminar hosted by gardening guru Ed Hume.

Note : I was laughing when I read the last para. Gardening, of all things!

I Don't wanna know

2007-03-14T01:58:00.000+08:00

MARIO WINANS LYRICS

"I Don't Wanna Know"

(feat. P. Diddy)

[P. Diddy - talking]
Hold up, let me answer my phone
Some bitch callin me about some bullshit probably
I'ma call you right back
I'm doin' this mixtape right now
Now back to what I was sayin

[Verse 1 - Mario Winans]
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

[Verse 2 - Mario Winans]
Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

[Break - Mario Winans]
Did he touch you better then me (touch you better then me)
Did he watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

[Verse 3 - P. Diddy]

I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra G's (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, yeah

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don't wanna know
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If you're playin' me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Engine, voommm~~

2007-03-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

Its been sometimes there is a Jap drama telecast on our SG channels!!! The korean wave had fully destroy our jap mentally! Still remember e jap's wave hitted us..well not its e opposite le. Anyway anyway....now got this Jap drama "engine"

mm..i like this main character, the guy. He is dashing in his own ways with a great sense of humor in this show! Example a couple of students were fighting each other, suddenly he would jus barged in without the care and talk to one of the student on a topic totally out of point!!

He is quite lame too and oh..e female character is prettiiiii~ yeah i like her! ! Another incentive to buy that! haha...lame of me.

mm..i not sure about korean dramas but i am certain most jap dramas will definitely invoke a great sense of thinking in you when you watch it. Yeah, their actions and words can touch you, motivate you or those positive/negative thoughts!

After watching e 2nd epsi..i feel better. I rem there was this scene this school girl was telling him about how her parents left her and the unfair the world is. Then guy who was driving that old school bus told this sec cutie that, life is unfair, the day you born is already is. All kinds of unfairness from richness to whatsoever. Continue with his family background, on that the girl asked him why didn't he felt strange talking about it. He just casually brushed it away, saying why must I feel so.

Oh he was complaining his unfairness about the new driver at his former Japanese racing club, stating that how life is so unfair that that guy with his rich family background gave him a better headstart etc. Due to his rich family backing, that racing club actually accept him as the main driver. That's why this main character was complaining.

But onus to him, he never give up. He jus state that he will not give up. Then he told that cutie, you should race too! She replied hur...which the guy say, why not? You are racing too, the race of your lifetime. Racing with your life, getting the things you want etc..Later this cutie told everyone, she indeed taking the race, on getting to uni.

At this point, i felt..stupid. Dearly i am. For the past few days, i have been feeling down due to my ankle. Its March now yet not really keep to the schedule of my recovering plan. Yeah, somehow that show give me the encouragement. I should race too, no matter what. That's like getting my ankle well, or getting a job!

mm..watching that scene is worth 100x more that jus reading my words!

People say humans are jus mere actors in this big earthly stage..agreed?

Yeah...!!!!

oh..its all right of what she thoughts, do..because overall that doesn't help me at all. Just be myself, why scare! hehe..

March..

2007-03-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

Currently I am afraid, maybe I am thinking too much. Hopefully it will not happen at all.

Rehab rehab rehab!!

Year of the PIG!!!

2007-02-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

Yeah its my year!! haha! oink oink~

Ok, here are some brief description of PIG!

People born in the Year of the Pig are chivalrious and gallant. They are passionate, sincere, sensitive and honest. Hungry for knowledge, they like to learn and read alot. Characterised by impulsiveness and occasional quick tempers, they dislike confrontation and are kid towards loved ones.

Yeah, :=)

Chinese new year is coming..Hopefully this Pig year will be good to me ! My family ! and my close friends !

Huat ahhhhh!!!

Some reflection on Jan

2007-02-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

Times passes very fast..its been one month since 2006 which is now Feb of course.

For the first three weeks of Jan, I had been playing PS2 winning 11 edition 11. Thanks to dom eh..yeah, its been funz, like holidaying, spending my night till 6 am! lol...Then challenged dom into some matches, stunned him 3 goals in 10 minutes! !! That's a game to be rem of! oh well, i lost to him in latter matches too..but in e end, we were on par !

After that, I need to return his PS2 due to his bro hands itchy..its allright, thanks dom !

I got my compaq lappy on the 3rd week of sat! Its sleek & cool looking lol, blacking and shining and is much smaller than my fujisu ( which is my 7 yrs old wife, dun worrie i have not forsake you, yet! )

Spent the last 2 weeks playing Dota using my new lappy, it is fast ! Other than that, going thru stocks informations etc..somehow i felt tired of the restless time. I know i been playing too much yet i am not doing anything. Slacker..suckzzz

Thanks van for the late night chats, it is nice chatting to you esp the song by elvis! Such a loving song..Congrats on ur job : )

Next week is my medical appt, hopefully the doctor can give me the earliest date for the removal of screw!

At 2.06am now...

2007-01-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

These days I been facing solitude at home, hardly talk to anyone except my dad during the day and family when they came back home. Occasionally, friends do visit me or i will call them for phone chats.I must admit, its getting the nerve of me. Hadly goes hard to the outside world, yest there was some sunlight shining over the corridor and some vit D is good for me i guess. Yeah, nv regret that i did that.

Staying at home makes one person think alot esp the past. The regrets, evil, good, sweet whatsoever moments I went thru before. It can make you mad, that's why i guess people are being send to jail instead of other punishments.

Have to stop thinking about the past, now its time to think about my future. Oh dear, its scary to think..

Ever thought of the picture, i mean the BIG PICTURE!!

Maybe God wants me to fall down not once but twice and force myself to stand up again. Its hard to imagine that i need to have my right ankle operated twice. I only have myself to blame i guess..nahz, not going to regret anymore. Ever thought before that what you went thru in your life is sort of training to the big picture? hah yeah i know, its like zi wo an wei..but i think it holds some true. really, think about it.

So therefore, if this is the training that God wants me to undergo, I am abide to take this challenge ! Amen

A ghosty vid :p

2007-01-18T17:46:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CN7csoaGles

A very old Chow Yun Fat Movie

2007-01-16T15:41:00.000+08:00

A late Happy New Year to my friends and yeah to my blog here too! hee..

Hope my goals aka resolutions can fufill this year, no i must do it!!! ^^
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I remember last time watching this movie starred him. The scene i remember clearly was that he and his group of friends tried to get some shits, yesh the shits from a tiger, at a zoo i think. Apparently he ate the long piece of shit after getting it. Amazing. I had a good laugh about it.

Tuned to channel 8 during the half time of Spur's vs Ncastle match, once again it was that show.

Ok, the scene of he is eating the shit was over but i still continue the show. Bought back e funny scene and many nice memories of that show.

Anyway i guess he was still a newbie in that show as he needs to do lots of stunts like eating shit, making himself dirty by slipping egg whites from e flooir etc..i mean as a newbie in the movie world, you couldn't do much except do what the director say.

Anyway his china accents, actions with the late actress Anita Mui and co made this movie a hit back in the 90s i think..

Oh got this slogan by the main actor and his friends is like this, in chinese -->

" Mind up your mind, don't mind sacrifices, go through all difficulties and make big money"

Though this is just a movie, but real life is somehow similar to a movie scene. This showed how determine are they to have a life in HK, after swimming from mainland.

ahh this song during e movie from " xxx", I forgot his name liao..in chinese too, Tell me love is how to say is terribly mesmerising...anyone know his name and got his song, think he is call wu si kai ? mm

Family man

2006-12-25T02:24:00.000+08:00

The biggest of all judgement tests is " knowing yourself"

One of the phrase in the movie " family man", starred Nic Cage. A very absorbing movie, suits for money minded people.

Taking a big leap of faith

2006-12-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

14th of Dec. That's it..amen!

I pray for the op goes smoothly and after that my recovery goes well with my therapies going good too. And my ankle will be ok once again.

Be confidence on the doctor

Be confidence i can be well again

Be strong and be whatever i can be

AQ

2006-11-12T16:55:00.000+08:00

Adversity Quotient. After the people and events i went through, personally i think that AQ is much more important than IQ and EQ. AQ is how you defines yourself in your life. How can you take the adversity facing right in your face and handle it emotionally and physically.

I find it hard to maintain my AQ, simply i give so much hope to my ankle yet in the end i still have to go for another operation. I sick of it.

After the operation, i will rehab carefully and will not play soccer until i pretty sure i recover. It will not be intensive soccer play i can tell you. If there is a chance of my ankle does not improve after the operation, i have to lay down and say, i seriously did my best. Hopefully the operation will help.

Because of the impending operation, my plan crushed. The plans of going to enjoy my leave, find work and fitness went downhill. How normal in my ns life now. Its always like this..wonder why? mm

Makes me think that life is so fragile. Just a sudden decision can make life a wreck. I seriously needs to adjust my view in life now, by doing things i love, dare to dream etc?

Sounds so easy...

I think i should bite on and continue my life yeah, i still needs to live.

Time for PLAN B.

101% to the things i do which if know of

2006-10-14T11:20:00.000+08:00

i always feel that i give my 101% in the things i like. Like soccer, i always try to play my best. Like DnT work and work wise when i know e knowledge of it.

But its contradicting in another sense because i rem when my final proj, i did not really try my best. I guess because i was young and i don't like the programming work on it. I don't understand at all which occurs me now that i am 101% not interested in programming!! Hence i never make an effort on it. Meanwhile for my final year report, i did all by myself. Its like i know what, how to do with it and well i spent 101% on it. Its a big drift yeah..

Just maybe for work commitment whether of giving 101%, its all depends on the scope of work i am doing :

1) Whether am i enjoying

2) Whether i know how to do. And seem i am goin out to work soon, i cannot be choosy, got to learn the work i do not know. But make it a job at least i am interested to learn :)

3) After all, i like challenges. Like soccer, winning. Like report, finishing well, like a cup of latte, it tastes nice.

All theses kinda factors i need to find out more about myself, because what job i will be working hinges on them.

A swim break today!

2006-09-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

Today i managed to sneak out of camp and have my EFO! haha...kinda bad eh..but then i work hard and i think i should play hard too thoug its on a wrong timing. After dispatch the doc's to base, i asked the bus driver to fetch me to bp and that was 3.30pm! I thought since its still quite early, i could have a swim! hee..Quickly walked home and packed my stuffs then to Jurong west complex...that's call time managment isit! I did that once during my sec sch i believe..hhmm same old me..

Feeling scare of the past events.

2006-09-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

My heart dropped when i recieved the call from mum, telling me that sister need to admit to hospital. I am scare, paranoia of this calls. The fact that i recieved calls from my relatives and close frens before made me feel that..i am unable to handle this kind of things. I tried to get over it but this fear or this kind of worry feeling is unbearable to me. I prayed to God that my sister did not get into something very serious. Its always like this...Sept is a terrible month. I hate this month. I felt hopeless.

2006-08-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

grinz

2006-08-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

look at me. omg, i find that my camera pixel sure sucks...

2006-08-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

my sis and i

2006-08-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

the door to this freaking house..

2006-08-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

just ahead of the queue...look at the kidsss~

2006-08-05T22:24:00.001+08:00

getting near to theee entrance..

2006-08-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

sneak preview...gross man..

2006-08-05T22:21:00.001+08:00

this is it. the haunted house!!

2006-08-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

smile le..muackz!

2006-08-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

cute ?

2006-08-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

my sis is choosing a very exp piece of artpiece ;p

2006-08-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

the tun live band..hahah

2006-08-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

that is b52 for you.

In need of weekend!

2006-08-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

Been very busy in camp for the past few days ( let's not talk about it) and well a fellow kept disturbing my peace in the camp too. One word to describle it, Sickening! I need the weekend quickly come. Yesterday, i discussed with that fellow and i don't dare to believe things went well too. Got into an agreement and hopefully he keep to it!
With to Indochine with liyun later in the evening. Hee, i was early! Keeping my time is a must from now on as i will be going out to work soon. We had our dinner at some chinese restaurant at wisma 1st and the food really worth the price. The egg fried rice is yummy and not that stickly. The prawns pancakes is crispy on the outside while soft on the inside. Prefect! LAsty is the xiao long bao, good fren fav eh...abit small on the size! haha..but ok lah.
Into indochine. The atmosphere was great although don't really like a friday night. Maybe it's due to the 7th month. *__* I ordered a B52 and while good fren ordered cup of dunno what drink. haa..jus dun rem it! is it barbie doll? but i rem something, rainygirl!!hee
Came our drinks. POP..my b52 shd call s52! its a shot. I thought it will come in a cup! haha..b as in Big mah..lol. Down into my stomach at one go, and my throat felt abit of hot. not bad lah..plus the mixture of it is pretty coolz. see the pic !
The live band at indochine was just ok lahz. The songs were nice but hor..e band was v tun de. Likes to have breaks and it was a pretty long de. haa..went home at around 11 as liyun scare of well u know what..

This morning i went to my sister sch funzfair!! Yeap just two of us! Luckily i shd say..coz if my dad comes along, he will complain surely as there were many kidss ard and we played from 9.45 to 1pm!!! From haunted house which we queued for 1+ hrs to dunking teachers to a tankful of water ! For the haunted hse, my sis and i waited for that long man, we cannot believe we really waited too. She wanted to give up but we already into half of the queue liao so we just continue. Upon the entrance, my sis became very scared. well, she is still young mah. Into the hse, it was totally dark and boo, there were kids pretending to be ghosts, damn. ahha..i was like busy protecting my sis than letting them to scare me! haa..
The dunking of the teacher was amazing! because i never tried that before. I bought the $5 coup and it came with 3 balls of chances. My sister tried the 1st two and it was quite depressing far from the target. It was my turn. Guess what, the lady in charge told me, for adult must stand 3 more steps behind. I was huhh, ok lor. Grabbing the ball and boucing it to feel the weight and before i throw it, i need to create some space ard me as soo many kids were surrounding me. Here comes! Pulling my shoulder back and vooom, the ball was thrown. It was certaintly a miss when i throw it but somehow it hitted the tip of the target. HAA! the teacher, as my sis told me. She is call Ms hua lao shi. Hehe, sorry abt ta Ms Hua. She went down in a flash and i was grinning with my sister. ahaha! :p

The weekend did came and i enjoyed lots of it. But it comes with a price. I spent a total of $65 on these two days. I am not a stingy guy but $ is hard to save. I guess this is a once a mth thingy. But i really enjoyed eating out with my good fren and having funz with my sister!

my weekend

2006-07-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

On friday night i watched the 9pm channel U police show and it was a pretty sad episode. The main female and male characters broke up due to misunderstandings. A kind of misunderstanding that couples bound to have in their times together, that is 3rd party. Well, both the main characters are working for the police while the 3rd party is also a inspector. Somehow this inspector fell in love with the policewoman and began to chase her. Our dear lead policeman was not confident at all due to some reasons but one of the main reason is because her gf is being too frenly to the inspector.

Let us name our main lead as Mr A while the female is B and the 3rd party is Z. Here goes : B and Z are very close, they went to rock climbing together etc..A suspected that Z is chasing her. B say cannot be possible. Later A and Z comfronted each other and Z admitted saying he chasing her, stating that" if A and B relationship is good, need not scare of me " ( what ass he is ) . After a long time of A and B keep quarrelling about this matter, B is very frustrated of A behaviour say of possessive of her, not trusting her. A say he is not. Well come to think of it, he is being abit possessive but you cannot blame A. After all, Z stated that he is chasing her and B is like still being too frenly to Z, like giving chances to him. A of cos will be angry and confuse. The final straw came when A and B quarrelled badly and for B birthday, she skipped A and joined Z for a dinner. Even though A and B got a 6 years of relationship and still in love. After the dinner, B was drunk and as the story goes, A beat up Z as A tot Z is raping B. B woke up and shouted a A and initated the broke up. ( during the time of the scene, i was quite sick of this story and sad too. I mean even thou this is a drama, it happened in real life too, to many couples surely)

I hate 3rd party. These kind of people should hang up and rot to death. Even though they knew that the couple is like unstable, they will step in and backstab. Causing the relationship between them worse. What I mean, the 3rd party should respect them both and let nature takes it course. If that couple meant to broke off, it will. Why stabbing him/her?

i remember partly my ex ignored me because of my distrust of her and party this reason led to the broke up. All happened when our relationship was at the lowest ebb and this third party appeared, he knew we were in sort of a trouble and yet still chased her. I was foolish and well quarrelled with her because of this. Damn this guy...life is unfair enough, why being in love is also so hard. ( i know it is not a mature thinking at all, well..in love, ur eyes are usually blind )

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Visited my grandma with my family on sat night and later my uncle with his family joined us. It was really funz..I love them alot. muackZ

World cup is gone... :/

2006-07-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

After a month-feast of soccer, it is gone..vanish and I have to wait another 4 years. The feelings cannot be describle. So lost now, how i miss the dashing players and silky skills made by the players..granted, this WC was not that exciting in term of goals but in terms of match up, that was amazing! Matches between arg vs holland, germany vs italy, port vs england, bra vs france and many more great teams sparring with each other made me droolled all nights. Better than the 2002 WC! During the time when i was not in front of the tv, guess what i am doing. Either Sleeping or reading the sports news for any ideas of what to bet! Advices from my good fren helped me too! haa! Not too bad, won $9 after all. I admit this is a very small amt!! But but i never lost my inital $$..so i guess that calls for some celebration..ahha

Now i feel lost, like no more soccer for me till aug. hhmm..Time to work my things up again..arggh, why am i not born with a silver spoon then i can laze ard..aha..oh, anyone got $$ to lend me for studies..haha...30k? lol

Addictive addictive! Alert!~!~!~

2006-07-02T16:09:00.000+08:00

Its been heart breaking world cup for me! I won some $$ from the first and 2nd round, the favourites were giving me the lucks. Apparently from the quarter final onwards, my luck deserted me. Just ran off without telling me! lol
Yesterday..my favourite team England left their "balls" back in their training ground. Typically long balls to the lone striker rooney and omg, inter passing between rio and terry. This kind of football will not win the WC! The direct cause of this miserable play? The coach, eriksson...is an ass. I can't believe England FA waited till so long to sack him...what a jokE!!!!
With England lost yest, i lost all my profit that i earned from the previous matches. No win, no lose for this WC. Kinda sad..esp most of the favourites are winning and i did not get on the boat somehow..

Back to the topic, Betting or aka gambling. Is gambling is a addictive hobby. I think not when i know i can control myself. Well, after this world cup, i got a serious doubt about this. I know i am in control but somehow in my sub concious, i told myself " why did i not bet more $ on this game " ....
I guess..betting is a sin after all........... .... ....

2006-06-25T17:54:00.001+08:00

beady

2006-06-25T17:54:00.000+08:00

The $$ converted from my treasure box into these.. :p

2006-06-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

The secret of Life

2006-06-25T17:53:00.001+08:00

Care for some heads?

2006-06-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

An old police jeep. Amazing

2006-06-25T17:52:00.000+08:00

My sister art piece, not bad le..

World Cup is comming!!

2006-06-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yeahhh, World Cup 2006 is coming! This saturday is the opening match! Oh my god, the competition that everyone, er almost every except the ladies? hahaa!! I gotta enjoy the festival of it, the brillant and excitment of the teams that are playing. Notably England! I hope Ronney is able to make it. Well, the competition that occur once every 4 years, let it begin!

By the way, tomorrow all of human race will exp the day of 060606 Day. Its like occurred every 100 years..so i guess it is pretty unique to me. Yeah i miss the sega saturn game, its related to 060606 too..!

Somehow i felt good and lively in my heart.

2006-06-05T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah, i knew this was the moment. The self-realization that she will never come back to you again. Even i moved a mountain or carry 10 tonnes of grains for her..haha! Anyway in a serious tone, i know i did everything i can, yes everything i can do to try to touch her heart again, let her fall in love with me again. I couldn't do much more, after all i am a mere human. This is the latter i am chosing now. To chose to be happy, not just to chose..is letting my heart chose freely. Without any pressure on me, telling me to forget her. I just can easily, say..hey i am not missing you anymore. After a year, days and nights of drifting back to e past, letting her know that i will wait for her through letters, smss, and even present. She just wouldn't brave the moment to meet me and talk it out, instead MSNed me..well if that's what she wanted, i respect her. I think, the moment came when she told me. Telling me to stop, telling whatever concern i gave to her, she do not need it. Initally i was sad for the next few days. Who wouldn't, after spending a year on a lost love. But after some thoughts and went to CHC Emerge 2006, i felt something different. There is a world out there to breathe and fight for! Friends to make, a life to make out of and many things. Amen. oh yeah, i hope she read that email..goodbye sy and helloo to my new world!

The day i long awaited for..

2006-06-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

I know one day she will contact me..i just know that. Well she did after all. Few days back, on the 30th i think. She MSNed me while i was chatting with my friends. Stunned, shocked and very surprised when i saw her email on the msn window. I thought it was someone else initally but it was her. Too shocked to react, i thought of the scenarios why would she want to contact me. In my heart, i wish she wanted to keep in touch with me but it proved otherwise. Yes i knew, she would not attempt to contact me unless..After 1 year and 1 month of not keeping in touch, i felt strange. It was like, i always thought of her almost every days and nights and i always wish that she will return back to my side someday or maybe become friends. Those memories always difted back to me, on the places we went etc..although we had a short time together, still it was a relationship that was hard to move on.

After much hestiation i began to chat. From the begining, she spoke her mind. In short, she wanted me to stop all the contacting, the gifts, cards. I was shocked when she say that and curious why she took so long till now..As the last moment i contacted her was the card i sent, that was 1 mth + ago..and the things she say was some months ago i did. From what i see, she just couldn't take it anymore. I guess she would think, that was the limit. aha..So in the end, she just took the initative to MSNed me. It came out of the blue and went off in a flash too..without much talk, she was offline. Forever.

There were two ways for me to react. Be sad or happy. I chosed the former. The way she confronted me was not new but after a year she still has that cold hearted in the way of doing things made me sad. After all, we had a love relationship that happened only once or twice in a person life. I was very sad. I thought contacting her once again will be a happy thing. We will be embracing with each other in the name of love. Am i just too naive and romantic..haha!! She gave me 4 mins, of conversation and leave my heart broken once again. I felt that was unfair to me. Couldn't she just tell me earlier..saying that, whatever you do, i will never be touch again. Letting me in a loss for a year..that was a cruel thing to do. But i know love is blind and there are no rights and wrongs in a relationship.

Tagged by Liyun

2006-05-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

I am: A guy searching for his way of life

I want: tonnes of knowledge of the financial world and a peaceful world

i wish: My family and I are spare of hunger, poverty, sickness and lastly peace and love in my family

i hate: Proud people, backstabbers and many more! haa!!

i miss: my childhood and myself, on the soccer court. My innocence

i fear: My future and many things. But i guess being worry is a waste of time to, just do your best and yeah hopefully all goes well

i hear: Myself being stressed by myself everyday. I need a mp3! :-/

i wonder: Why the world is round, the sky is blue( yeah i know why) and why the ground is brown

i regret: Saying all those bad things to the people i truly love. Being a procastinator

i am not: What i am seem to be

i dance: With the rhyme of the music inside me

i sing: along my favorite songs on the radio

I cry: when i am helpless and the last time i cried i was in denial

I am not always: good and honest and feeling good about myself

I make with my own hands: Handicrafts that can melt girls :p and oh my D&T works i still using today!

I write: my feelings here, my inner feelings on drafts and my memories on my back of my head

I confuse: when abrupt changes occurred and i had to make a choice

I need: Myself, myself and yes still is myself on the right tracks

I should: start to sleep more, exercise more, work more, study more. shit, why there is only 24hrs in a day

I start: my day switching off my alarms and to the shower. maybe some music to perk my day

i finish: never finish what i should do. Always hanging on cuz of hiccups. Damn.

i love: My family and i should love myself more from now on

i remember: The times of the past.

i shall tagged dom, regina, lynn and Janice

Had a very long and funzz weekend !

2006-05-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

The first day of the long weekend was totally awesome! Met sandy and kennth for dinner. Have't met sandy for 1+ years and for kennth is 5 years!! That is half a decade! haha..anyway sandy is getting slimmer and prettier..hee while kennth looks e same like me. Not much changes in physical size. We chatted lots of stuffs including out future, work and ourselves. For the future, looks very bleak for us. Either got job or not job, so sad. Time passes so fast, five years ago we were thrashing about animations and now were the serious issues. There was the topic of attitude soldiers too, apparently kennth did encountered some men even worse than mine. geez..After the dinner we went to Intercontinental Hotel to chill. Yup, it was my first time chilling at a high class place. Ordered a $20 martini " imaginary" i think. Damn bitter! haha..Sandy orderd a $16 drink while kennth ordered a $20 too called " Broth Lust " haha..he is lusty! We chatted till 11.30 then went home, damn my last bus went off in front of my eyes. Took cabby home in the end.

The 2nd day i spent with Liyun and Jon. Went to Income Centre for the seminar by Mr Tan, the CEO of NTUC. It was about saving and more on the polices by NTUC. I had to say the investment policy is very good and flexible and most important is the trust ( govt mah ) haha..will not go broke! After the seminar, liyun and i went to watch MI3, good heaven it was terrific. This was the first movie i watched with my heart beating so fast. There was this scene, the bad guy was to shoot Tom cruise wife at the count of 10, and went bang! His wife was dead. I was stunned, was the script correct? Then apparently one of the bad guy torn his wife face off! tata! it is a mask..haha...a Five Stars movie!
Chilled with yuling and ah hao at chijmes watching liverpool aka number 8 won west ham through PK. Lucky pool..west ham was the better team all the way lor!!

I realised both friday and sat i reached home very late. And now as i am writing this entry, i am feeling tired. The power of increment of sleepless nights.

ah, i betted on something worth $195. Time frame to research is 2 weeks. Something worthly to aim for now! YEah!

Celebrating mummy's day tonite!! I love you mum!!!

2nd part of cooking class

2006-04-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

Tried cooking fried rice and a plate of green vegetable ( kan lan ) for my dinner on my sunday duty! Well, here is the process i fried the rice :

-A packet of white rice
-2 eggs
-a pack of peas
-some hay bee (small prawns)
-onions
-4 slices of hotdogs

I fried the hay bee and onions first with some oil. Then the hotdogs next. After panning the flavoriing stuffs and hotdogs for awhile, i put the rice in it. Officially first time cooking fried rice! I found out that you need to literally fry it! My right arm was abit shag when halfway cooking the fried rice as i had to keep turning the rice about & about. After 5 mins of that, the rice will be well spread as in "fried" then i add a spoon of light soy ard it and fried again. This will make the rice smell and looks nice! 10 mins more, it actually depending ur size of ur wok and how much ur rice is. Now for the eggs part, i spread the rice to the sides like a circle and in the middle of it, i put 2 eggs to cook. Waited for the eggs to cooked ard 50%, then i fried the rice again with the eggs. This requires arm strength wor...Apparently, e end product is abit too sticky. Due to the wok was too small for the rice and 2 eggs to mix in. Anyway i glad i did tried to cook fried rice as it is my fav dish after all.

1 year passed

2006-04-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

1 year passed...did i grow as a person or i just remain e same? I am the only person that can answer that. God Bless

What a tiring but funz week!

2006-04-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

For the past few entries, i kept posting about my sucky life in camp. I felt soo bad, clogging my blog. Apparently, my whole life is in this camp now. I couldn't run away nor hide and since i am stuck for another 9 more months, i have to plan my alternatives. That is, making people work for me. Yeah, i will be the bad guy, going to be Mr Serg now. aha..Whatever OC tells me to do, i will do it, just for e sake of doing...sad isit, National service still have soldiers of e old school!

Side-track abit, i wonder if i will to work in this enviroment at some company next time, what would I do, behave? sounds scary..for heaven sake, let me learn from this "temp life" and next time i will know what to do.

Oh well, friday was good! He did not scold me or others! Want to know why, because he vented his anger on a staff serg earlier..why does he always need to vent his anger on pple when he back in camp? mentally sick man

Later at night, joel jioed me to Devils! Did i heard wrong? The last time we clubbed was 3 years ago and then he got tis gf. Anyway, i went! Alvan was there, he got tis VIP card so he signed us in. Orderd 2 barrels of beer, 6 guys and 1 girl later. Quite boring at there, e songs are were only and e crowds were like 27++... ... ...ZzZZZzzZZ!! Told myself i am not coming here anymore! Meanwhile i got butt-hitted by tis aunty!! she was dancing with her daugther, took up lots of space and with me beside, she kept butt hitting me!!!! !!! !!!! Well, I am very good de, will not bully old lady so i moved to e opposite direction! hee..i took a pic of her then. Wanna see a 40+ woman dancing? whaha...

When i was in sec sch, i attended Home Econ classes. At that time, i found myself drawn to cooking, stir-flying, baking etc. That was in sec 2, then sec 3 i chosed D&T. Oh, e handiworks i did are still with me! Consisted of a plastic door sign, a wooden door sign too, a lacq wooden dove-tailed treasure box and a 30 cm wooden aeroplane! The only workpiece was missing was the Swinging-teddy clock piece, unique right! It was a very romantic gesture. Yeah, i did that for my first girlfren during my sec 5. We broke up before the workpiece was done and after submitting it, i never thought of getting back.Wasted, all e hard work..it was lots of work, esp e balancing..Few months later, when i thought of getting back, it was gone. Wondering where it swinged to? ; (
Back to the point, i tried to cook on sat duty. Its been few years i last chopped, sliced, fried a dish! The feeling is so strange, anyway these were what i cooked :

A plate of Jeffrey camp-make scamble-hotdogs eggs, a plate of red hot sambal-cuttlefish!

The egg was nice, yeah its easy but but..you need the exp to fried a perfect egg! I give it, 8/10!! My fellow duty mate say so too! Wanna taste ? ;p

The sambal cuttlefish was abit jialat le..as i never really cook a dish with e seasoning before, i do not know when is the cuttlefish is cook. Hence i guess i over cook it as it was abit chewy! The seasoning was gone too as i did not use a cover to stop e evaporating, lastly my mum later me later i should add a cup of water too. heehe, overall cooking is nice! Its allright for a guy to cook right, hee

liyun, from what u say, ur grp members sucks! i hate tis type of pple..hai, why in tis world, got some inconsiderate pple still?

Turning point in my camp life!

2006-03-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

I have decided that i should be a bad guy from now on. What made me turned to this route? On last friday, my oc burnt my offs, a total of 5. What happened was i covered my man off hence i was blamed for this. I admitted this was my mistake. A mistake of helping my friend, a mistake of being a good guy to my men. They did not appreciate my kindness and instead repaid me in term of tonnes of worries and ugly words from oc. Being a serg is like being a slave master, if did not do well, e master will hit out at the slave master.

Enuff of blaming pple. I have myself to be blame. I shared this with my friend yuling, he say im too good to be true. haha..Time to assert my authority on my men. Even then, i still got this feeling these men will still remain as blur as sotong and will challenge my words. Too good, bite me back. Too bad, things will get worse. Its like being a manager to a group of workers huh? Its time to see whether my leadership trait works...eh, on a group of lazy bummers. If they are a group of highly motivated pple , i tink it will not ba a prob at all. Ok, that's all.

Went to Mrs Tan death anniversary

2006-03-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

Mrs Tan was my babysitter when i was like p1? She took care of me until sec 1 then i told my mum that i able to look after myself at home :p

She passed away on march 27th 2002. I remember i picked this call from Aunty Suan, the only daughter of Mrs Tan. She told me Mrs Tan passed away and asked us whether going for for the wake. Of course we did. That was the last time i paid respect to her.

For the next four years my family and i always visit Mr Tan during the CNY period. However this year, my family was not free hence i went alone on a Friday i tink. That day, his elder son was there with his wife. I always call them pliot uncle and aunty mifong respectively, as he is a pliot! cool hor..
Anyway I stayed for lunch and chatted with Mr Tan and them for quite a long time. Even saw her daughter which i carried her when she was 8 mths old? now sec 2 wor..how times flies! Ah Mr Tan kept talking about Time flies v fast blah blah...hee..I miss them u know..

Anyway I asked Aunty Mifong about paying respect to Mrs Tan on her death anniversay, she say can be arrange.

On the 19th of march, they went to pay respect. I went too. Guess what, i manage to contact adeline, my companion during Mrs Tan babysitting time. :)
Have not see her for 10+ years i tink..she grew taller, think we are the same height! We never talk much, guess both of us were shy. hee! anyway its somehow made my heart relax after seening Mrs Tan after 4 years. I say a slient prayer to her and a heart of gratiude for looking after me so well. I can say that she and Mr Tan taught me alot of things, fed me well and disciple me well too. So many things want to tell her and Mr Tan, but as a guy..i don't know how to express my feeling to them. Hope they understand that! :)

Thank you Mrs Tan.

Drowsing from stress and work load

2006-03-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

Its been 1 month from my MATT course, a 2 wks course at soa. A year ago I was at there mugging every weeks for 3 mths for this ammo tech badge. One year later, we were back! hehee!! lalala! We were at there during CNY period somemore! Was quite memorable. =)

During the course, we played games like 007 bang bang, there was a Guess the number game too and guess the picture game. oh e loser of 10 times need to do something funny.hahA! Quite slack hor, was enjoying the days there! The mates, e food on the plate and e scenery! hai, why must this course lasted 2 wks only. I shall upload my pics here next time! will always rem this!!

Chinese New Year was funz too. Went to my uncle house and saw her youngest daughter. She was with her doggie, lucky is her name. haha...Damn cute lor, i even recorded her barking sounds on my hp and set it on my ring tone! Its a Dog Year after all!! I can write alot but then again, its not necc..sometimes some memory keep it to mind is e best.

Now today, 1st of march. hhmm...undergoing a very different type of stress enviroment now. I never exp this before. I don't want to say what happened because it will just make me angry and hurt again. Hopefully i can get use to it and get over this process quickly. Need to do my part as well too which i did?? nvm..just do it again!! Cannot quit and give up right!

Brooding pain

2006-02-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

As Im typing this now, my back is in pain. Well, i was on the bed, lying for the whole day so i guess i have to sit up abit. I learnt a few things from this current pain. Health is very important. Family ties are very important as well. And being scare of something is a common thing for human. And lastly, never goes against Heaven wills! Sounds im losing confidence yah, esp the part of "never goes against Heaven wills"

My pain became worse on Friday night esp after my afternoon nap. I cannot take the pain anymore hence i asked my mum to bring me to A&E for x-ray. Well the doc say its just back pain so gave me some pain killers and cream.

Well, the next day i went to my tie da, and after looking at the x-ray she say, the verebrates at the end of my spinal is very dangerously pressing to each other. The lucky thing is that it did not press the nerve or else, my legs will become numb. Hearing this, i went stunned. During the tie da session, she adjusted my spinal, stating by adjusting the verebrates the pain will decrease. During the session, i remember it was around this time last year, i was at here too. How ironic is that.This morning, i woke up. The pain was unbearable, unable to sit or stand up at all. This make me realised, how a Back can be so important to a human being.

During this time, my family esp my mum helped me alot. Its like time stopped. I am still in 2002, during the time i broke my ankle. I am indebted to my family. How can i repay them? After my recovery of my back, I hope i will able to treat them better!

I was scared, i unable to walk. I am still scare. God, please help me. I believe, i am fated not to play soccer. So many clues yet i still taking for granted. So i guess now this is the ultimate last chance to change my stance. I surrender. From now on, i will not play any soccer unless those just touch and go with my sister or kids. Please let me fulfill this promise Lord.

Its terrible of me, when i am ok i am a distance from God. Then when things happened, i went begging. To err is human i guess. After this, i will learn to go nearer to my religion. Amen

Hooking e last finger

2006-02-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

Made a promise with dexiang. I hope i can do it! =)

One of my new wish in this New 2006 year!

2006-02-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

I couldn't pity myself more longer..everything i took my body for granted. I thought i am a God. I am not. I sprained my back again due to soccer today. The ironic thing was that just before i went to play, a friend told me he is not playing due to aches in his body. I told him that, human mental power is much stronger than you think, Mind over Body! Well, just that my body couldn't take the stress level i put though. Jus so ironic...

Now as im typing it, my back is aching..its painful till i unable to squat.
:((( HELP!!! DAMN!! I hate my empty promises...I told myself, i going to on a diet of soccer games till i recover fully. I did not. The lure of scoring, playing, going pass players had me eat my own words again!!

Sometimes..i think my mental strength on activites like games & etc is too strong, even my parents say when can i able to look after myself, not to let them worried : (

I should change the route of the excessive mental power on things that worth more of my time and now

i understand the proverb "The greatest enemy is not anyone but yourself"

To able to attain the greatest level in oneself, you have to defeat the demon in you. Im not getting any soccer games till i recover fully! maybe just soccer with those pri sch kids but not high level soccer games. Just cannot..This is one of my new wish in this new year!

Unexpected thing happened on 171!

2006-02-01T20:31:00.000+08:00

After the long break and yes..my CNY was full of food! Till i went to toliet many times. Pig of me! Even im having stomach pain, i still eat as my parents wanted to have a late supper! Anyway then on 31th, chu 3 it was my mummy birthday! hee..we went to Hilton Hotel, at the Cheekers ( dunno whether is the right spelling ) for High Tea. The ambience was quite nice as there were only few pple in the restaurant. The rating for the food is like 7.5/10. Yummy mini tarts to unlimited fresh fruit juices, my fav! The whole family really enjoyed alot esp my dad and mum, three of us ( the children ) were damn full liao wor but my parents power! still continue eating..hahaha

Oh yah, something happened today on 171, the bus i took home everyday when im on course at the base. The story goes like this :

After the physical training which we played soccer. oh yah, had a v good game. I scored a goal using my left foot and a friend commented im both footed! hhmm..anyway that's include two falls on the floor. One warrent a huge scrap on my right leg while for another fall, i break my fall luckily, using my hand to grab my friend crotch when im abt to fall!! hahaa! Both of us were on e floor groaning then, oh my..lol Thanks matt mates for this funz! long time did not sweat and had funz already!

Back to story, on the way home on 171. My friends and I got to the back of the bus. Two of my friends got seats while i did not so lan lan, i stood in front of them. Suddenly, an pretty ang moh stood up from her seat and offered her seat to me. I was stunned and dunno what to say. I just yelled, "for what" Just as the words came out from my mouth, i knew it was a bad start. Luckily she was not offened by my rudeness. She pressed on, asking me to seat. I asked her why and she say, she's getting down soon so its allright. I hesitanted as im in my army smart 4 lor and somemore she's a lady ( the surrounding was like this, there were still 3 sch girls behind me and almost all pple at the back of the bus were noticing this commotion ) Im just too paiseh to take the seat lor!

In the end, i took the seat. Once seated, she patted my shoulder and said " So you sitting down here and let me standing up " I was stunned but she quicked waved off and say it was a joke. The bustop came, i say goodbye to her but she say she's not getting down yet. I immediately stood up and offered the seat back to her. She did not want the seat back and say i should sit. My friend was the telling me, i should sit least she will get offened. This ang moh then told me, if im not sitting down she would be upset. I told her no, you should sit. The conversation ended, she was offened! The seat left empty while both of us remains standing till she alighted in two bustops time.

Am i in the wrong of being a gentlemen! ?! ?!

Well esp in my smart 4, i will definitely paiseh if i accept her offer, which i did! Then she still on the bus, i offered the seat back to her. Is that a wrong?

Lastly, why did she offer her seat? First time, a lady offer wor somemore a pretty ang moh! maybe i tink too much but well..im recaping back now..maybe jus maybe im i guttsy enuff, i could have a conversation with her and get her number! haha..

Anyway thanks Ms Kind Ang moh lady :p

Happy Chinese New Year 2006!!

2006-01-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

Once again its Chinese Lunar New Year, this time as always spring cleaning first! EEkkss...its the same routine every year, waking up early in the morning with a piece of cloth on my hand. Cleaning every stuffs you can see, tables, chairs, my display set, cupboards doors and many more! The squatting up and down made my back sore man, getting old. haii . . . The cleaning lasted from 11am to 8.50pm amazing! Then we had our reunion dinner, hee..got many typical chinese food like duck, prawns and of course the fav steamboat! We left the dinner table with our stomach bloated! haha...such delicious dinner we had :p

After the dinner, we noticed the one of the fans had not wash and the light in our kitchen too. With my stomach knotted in, I took my trusty piece of cloth again and start e cleaning. hee..some eve i had. well, i like it somehow..lol

Am i always complain here..well, i am! haha..anyway

Gong xi fai Cai everyone! To me, liyun and many of my frenss! Hope this doggie year will be a good year to us! This is a new year!! Yes, hope God of Fortune shines his golden coin to us esp me!! heee

Had a wonderful and happy day.

2006-01-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful day today. Feeling tired but happy now and there is Manchester United vs Liverpool match in 15 minutes time! Glory Glory Manchester United!!

Met joel, yiyong, haiyan and guifen for a dim sum buffet at Excelsior Hotel at 12pm. As always guifen was late again, we did not wait for her as the 12pm was near. Anyway she catch up with us when we just about to reach the hotel. Quite a "dim sum" restaurant, like those in hongkong series. lol !! Haiyan ordered quite many dishes. Had two plates of every one kind of food, there were chicken legs, crystal dumpings, vege and many more. Did not see guifen for 1 year +, we chatted alot esp on her job. She is now working as a para-medic at queensway fire station. Talked about many of her work things, like what events did she exp before and guess what! She say many things and the worst is sucide case! shucks..
Towards the end of lunch, there were still left 2 meats and 1 fishball i think. All of us were damn full so in the end, we played a game. Everyone will bring out their hands and give out a number from 1 to 5. Add them together and counts from me, the chosen one will have to eat that! haa
The first game yiyong lost while the 2nd and 3rd i lost. Getting the thrill of it, we all agreed on the loser will have to drink one full cup of tea next! funz !
In the end, the teapot was refilled twice and joel, guifen drank 2 1/2 cups of tea, yiyong 1 1/2 cup while haiyan one cup. I was plain lucky, getting non of the tea. :p

After the lunch, we went to marine sq to jalan jalan. Walking around, having window shopping. Well, guifen was having non of it. She was into shopping, making us to wait for her for quite sometime! : !! Guifen accompany me to parklane shopping mall in the evening then, I went to get my jean that worths $560! I got it for $50 bucks! Yesss, it is original! Happy! haha...first time got a real exp stuff..maybe shall sell it after cny period. :)

Yea, manu match is starting! I pray hard for it! oh, tmr having my matt course. Time is passing real fast! Val Day is coming, hhmm...sure shucks

slow..

2006-01-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

kinda slow? im getting way behind. Desiree just hinted to me, she is getting on e bus towards her life, finding her life. While i kinda slow, unable to hope on e bus. So she just have to left me behind, even we are friends for quite a long time. Life...just soo, heartless huh. Come to tink of it, i did this before without realising it. Remember when i graduated from sec 5, i passed my 0 level whereas my close grp of frens all failed or moved to other poly. I left them behind too, without my knowing as im too young at that time.

Now, hhmm...i know how is it feel like. : (

gotta catch up..i will!

New Year! 2006!!!!

2006-01-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! Happy 2006! Kinda late hur but who cares! hee..This is a new year for everyone, esp for me! I have some realistic resolutions to attend to and i hope i can make it happen! Well but first let me recall back my 2005.

It was not exactly a good year for me, for the first few months i was getting too emotional over my relationship with my ex. Well not only e first few months i guess, it should be the whole of 2005, but i moved on gradually as the time passed. 2006 is a new year and i will go forward with my very best! =)

Here is how my 2005 was spend :

From Jan to March just after my pop from bmt, I had my ATT, ammo tech course. It was a stressful but fun course. Almost every 3 days, we had a exam and e notes were like 3 books thick! Just before every exam, i would have my early slp routine then woking up in an unearthly hours (my pri 4 and 0 level life!!) to study for the papers. Sometimes she accompanied me though online. After finished e studies and with some coffee, i would go for my course at the sch which situate at the wulu wulu hilltop Well, during e course i made some fabulous friends and i learnt alot of myself esp my temperametal attitude when things not going my way.

I did went to a concert at Esplande during the month of jan. It was awesome, the hall inside was very big and tall and i was sitting at the 3rd floor. The view and sound system of the play was a marval. Yes, the performance consist of ballet dances of childhood stories etc Little Red Riding hood were breathtaking. I like it alot so did she but alas i made a fuss during e nite.

Feb came, CNY season time. Had a new hairstyle, first time i changed my ever arron kwok style. Hhmm, had lots of goodies too and the only thing i remember most was that i played with my cousins of 5 and 7 years old gers. Made me realised that i love children alot!! Everytime i saw kids, i would wink or make some faces @ them! ahah

March, everything i had during Jan and Feb came crashing down. I was at my lowest point ever in my life. Nothing good to write about it in terms of physical health ( my back ) and mental health. Depression, yes first time i had it. Kinda new and scary.

Well, from the month of April to June nothing interesting happened. Graduated from my Sch of Ammo, posted to TAD. The camp was small but the depot was very big! Handled live ammo first time in my life, from counting hundreds of bullets to inspecting numbers of grenades and 155 was a very new experience! The greeny surrounded the building really made us feel that we are in a nature reserve! Enjoyed there as there are many friends around me, talking and sharing our lifes there. : )

During the time, my ankle sored alot. I made a decision. I intend to have my metal plates out from my right ankle. As the pain kept growing, at that time i hoped by doing so, will help to heal my ankle.

July, few days after my 22nd Birthday i had the 2nd operation of my ankle. The feeling of wheeling into the operation had mixed feelings. The feeling of alittle scared and curiousity. From exploring the rooms and equipments to seening two junior doctors SMSing their hp! omg!! Luckily the op went smoothly. Went back home later in the evening and oh yah, with my screws and plate! I had my recuperation from july to august wor. During this time, I enjoyed the freedom that i missed before my enlistment. Watching naruto, reading some books and playing my games for 1 month + or so.

My poly mate, yang yang visited me too. She came with her friend and lots of tibits! haha..After my foot was alittle better, i visited her home several times. I remember i watched this movie with her, forgot what was the title but my fav korean actress jang nara was inside! :) Oh, i watched a midnite movie too, ghost train i think. I was quite aweful at that time! Damn paiseh ! haha...
Now she is in Australia studying, don't know how is she. Really hopes she is fine and well studying there!

Just before my birthday i met this pretty but "scar-y" girl. Quite nice to me and was kinda attracted to her as a friend. She sat though with me on my 22nd birthdat, thanks joan. Then just the day or two before my operation, she and i did something unforgettable. Will always rem that. Too bad, after that we just cannot click.

Attached to KAD on Sept to Dec and counting, was kinda nothing to do hence sent there to have my ankle heal. As im the 3SG at there, the men told me in few months time i will be handling all aspects in the camp. Eekk..but i had not choice do i? Learning to be independent, that is one of the trait you will have to learn. The OC in kad kinda sucks. Seriously, nothing good worth mentioning here except the friendly environment with the friends.

During the month of Nov, i remember i spent lots lots of $ on food! One week eating at resturant with joel, haiyan, sandi then another week was at tiong bahru market celebrating joel 21st birthday! ordered quite alot of food. :P

Dec..the last month of 2005! Very busy with my camp life, got mani shits. Those guys with crabs, bars on their collars got attitude problems! Why am i not getting e treatment i shd deserve? Yes, sometimes is my fault! But when i did well, did i get praise? who wants your bloodi praises anyway!!

Went MOS on x'mas eve with yuling, adrain and my dear gay buddy louis. E place is very big ans bright. Very nice to walk ard..hahaa...lol. Remember that i spent the last 2 christmas eve outside with my friends. 2003, was with joel and wenhai and yangfei out at a club at ps area. 2004, was with her, counting down on a bus. Pathetic...?

Anyway here is my 2005, still got many stuffs to write but feeling draggy now..maybe when i got lin gan to write again, i will input more stuffs. Meanwhile, Mr Jeffrey..2005 is a past, tell yourself that. Walk towards the future, with my resolutions in hand!! can i do it?!?! i can, i must!

oh, i do cherish my friends alot. Im a cancercian after all.

Coming to X'mas~~

2005-12-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming in 1 week time then few days later its New Year, end of 2005. Hhmm, got soo much gan chu for this year alone. Anyway just finish watching the 9pm channel 8 show, The Rainbow Connection. The tone and lyrics of that show is quite meaning and of course e storylines was quite interesting and unforgiven to the end of the show. I remember towards the end, this guy broke with up with the main lady conversation --->

Jian Yi say to Ying Ying" I remember you once told me, you got this friend name Jian Yi. He went missing, please help me to find him and tell him you are still waiting "

Then he added, " now i tell you, i got this friend name Ying Ying. I am looking for her too, if you find her. Pls tell her, don't wait for me"

Ying Ying was stunned and tried to fight back but the guy continue " tell her, the ying ying i know has already gone, i couldn't find her" Then he went off.

Ying Ying added with tears flowing " Why, winning the dance competition and fulilling my dream is it a wrong thing? "

Jian Yi turned back, crying too, face was full of sadness and wei na " I don't know"

With that, he went off. Leaving Ying Ying behind.

With all of her determintion and drive to win the competition, she did! In the end, she too showed another side of her. She does not need JY to look after her, tends to her needs as she is as strong gal unlike another gal which JY went to be with her later.

Ying Ying is a gal which upfront seems to be weak but inside is just e opp while e another gal seems v strong upfront but inside is totally v tender. JY choses the latter because he know Ying ying can look after herself while e another gal could not. JYsay he couldn't give an answer because, he too don't know.

Neither Ying Ying nor JY were in the wrong, Ying Ying rightly search for her dreams while JY seening Ying Ying change of character, he finally summise it, "he couldn't find her" A change of heart after seening his gf change, is that a wrong thing? of course not!

Love is really just an illusion after all! I guess, no i would say " Loving yourself is the greatest love you can give to anyone" ( its a difficult thing thou)

Tribute to George Best

2005-12-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

1 week after keano left manchester United, another great man departed. His name is George Best. There are so many good words, sentences to praise him because he was a really great player. His skills, dribblings, balance was more than equal to whatever attributes a soccer player must have. Here is the clip of him playing pure football http://www.footballclips.net/george_best

Was stunned after watching.

2005-11-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

Goodbye!

2005-11-20T21:05:00.001+08:00

Come on mate, do your best !!!

2005-11-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

Glorious times

Keano, i will miss u! Your traits and characters are beyond any comprehensions!

2005-11-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

Keane 'unique' for United - PFA
The dramatic end to Roy Keane's Manchester United career was swiftly followed by warm tributes to the Irishman.

Keane ended a 12-year association with United today when he left the club by mutual consent.
The Professional Footballers' Association lauded the 34-year-old's contribution to the Old Trafford club, with deputy chief executive Mick McGuire declaring Keane would be a hard act to follow.
'He's been a magnificent player for the club and has been as instrumental as any player in ensuring that United have been a leading club in the Premiership and have achieved so much in the last decade,' said McGuire.
'He is unique and he's going to be very, very difficult to replace.'
Real Madrid's David Beckham was shocked and surprised by Keane's exit. The England captain played alongside Keane throughout his career at United and said the Irishman had been the most inspirational player he had played with.
'I'm shocked that he has left because I thought he'd be there for a few more years and I thought that he'd maybe go into coaching there,' said Beckham on Friday.
'It's his decision of course and everyone will respect that, but people now have to look at what he's done at Manchester United. Over his 12 years he's won everything in club football.'
'I played with him for so many years at United and he was one of the most inspirational captains and players I've ever played with,' said Beckham.
'He's a player that will lead from the front and get a team going. You always know where you stand with him which is good. He'll tell you if you are doing something wrong and he'll tell you when you've done something right in his own special way.'
'Every player who plays with him can't speak highly enough of him and every player who plays against him always has something to say about him.'
Former United and Republic of Ireland striker Frank Stapleton believes Keane's recent criticism of team-mates in an MUTV programme, which was considered so strong that the show was pulled from the schedules, was 'at the centre' of the mutual decision to quit.
'In some ways I'm surprised and in other ways I'm not,' Stapleton told Sky Sports.
'It is a reaction to what happened a few weeks ago, when he criticised his team-mates publicly, plus a combination of the fact that maybe they weren't ready to renew his contract at the end of the season.
'He probably said 'I'll go now rather than wait'.
'The programme is the centre of this. Just before (the pulled MUTV programme) he had said he didn't think he'd be at the club after this season maybe to force them into giving him a contract.
'At this stage of his career Roy knows it is very straightforward. He wouldn't have thought twice about saying 'right, let's call it a day now, let's move on' and the club have obviously made the decision not to renew his contract.
'In the period that he has been there he has had unbelievable success. But in my mind no player has ever been bigger than Manchester United. The club will go on and look to get stronger.'
Another former United player, Lou Macari, was shocked by the news. 'It's a real bolt out of the blue. I've always thought of Roy Keane as a major part of Manchester United,' he said.
'There is always a place for Roy Keane in the team, and it is only when the likes of Keane, Paul Scholes and the Nevilles have all gone that people will realise their value.
'Trying to replace Roy Keane is almost impossible and no matter what Roy will say over the next few weeks and months ahead, Roy will be gutted that he is no longer a Manchester United player.'
Arsenal boss Arsene Wenger was taken aback at the news but does not expect the announcement to mark the end of Keane's playing career.
'It's a big surprise to let him go in the middle of the season,' the Frenchman told BBC Radio Five Live.
'It looked like he was a bit upset recently. Why, I don't know.
'You must know what is going inside the club to judge that.'
Wenger observed that Keane no longer has the physical attributes which made him a fearsome opponent in his late twenties, but added: 'He's still an influential (team) member when he plays and has a huge football brain.'
As for whether Keane may return to the game in the Premiership, with one of United's rivals, Wenger said: 'I wouldn't be surprised.'
But Keane's destination will not be Highbury, where Wenger has invested considerable trust in a young midfield this season.
'At the moment, no. We have put our confidence in our players and will keep doing that,' he said.
Nicky Butt, Keane's former midfield partner who is now at Birmingham, believes the Irishman will be remembered as a leader.
He told Sky Sports: 'He was one of the best players the club has ever had. And he was a leader - that's how he will be remembered.'
However he denied he was irreplaceable, adding: 'Ten years ago you could have said that about Bryan Robson.'

Manchester United statement on Roy Keane
'Manchester United has today reached agreement with Roy Keane for Roy to leave the club with immediate effect.

'The agreement allows Roy to sign a long term deal with another club to enable him to secure his playing career beyond what would have been the end of his contract at United in the summer.
'The club has offered Roy a testimonial in recognition of his 12 years at Old Trafford.
'The club thanks Roy for his major contribution to the Club during his years of service.'
Manager Sir Alex Ferguson said: 'Roy Keane has been a fantastic servant for Manchester United. The best midfield player in the world of his generation, he is already one of the great figures in our club's illustrious history. Roy has been central to the success of the Club in the last 12 years and everyone at Old Trafford wishes him well in the rest of his career and beyond.'
Chief executive David Gill said: 'Roy has been a towering figure at the club for over a decade. His dedication, talent and leadership have been qualities that have marked him out as one of the true greats. On behalf of everyone at the club, we wish him every success in his future career.'
Roy Keane said: 'It has been a great honour and privilege for me to play for Manchester United for over 12 years. During my time at the Club I have been fortunate to play alongside some of the best players in the game and in front of the best supporters in the world. At all times I have endeavoured to do my best for the management and the team.
'Whilst it is a sad day for me to leave such a great club and manager I believe that the time has now come for me to move on. After so many years, I will miss everyone at the club.
'I send my best wishes for the future to the management, players, staff and supporters of the club.'

Roy Keane has sensationally left Manchester United by mutual consent, the club announced today.

Sir Alex Ferguson with his former skipper.
A statement released by the Old Trafford outfit confirmed that their long-serving captain has departed with immediate effect after it became clear that his future at the club was untenable.
The 34-year-old's representative Michael Kennedy met United chief executive David Gill at Old Trafford to thrash out details of Keane's severance, completing one of the most dramatic departures Manchester United has ever known.
The announcement comes less than three weeks after Keane's amazing outburst at his team-mates during an MUTV interview so damning that it was deemed 'unbroadcastable'.
Sir Alex Ferguson was known to be furious at the timing and verocity of the personal attacks contained within the interview and publicly rebuked his skipper prior to the win over Chelsea on November 6.
Once the depth of Ferguson's feeling was known it became clear that Keane had no future at the club.
A previous offer for a testimonial in recognition of the Irishman's 12-and-a-half years at Old Trafford has been confirmed in writing but Keane will not be at the club in an official capacity if he decides to take the offer up.
'It has been a great honour and privilege to play for Manchester United for 12 years,' said Keane.
'Whilst it is a sad day for me to leave such a great club and manager I believe that the time has now come for me to move on.
'After so many years I will miss everyone at the club.'
Keane had already cast doubt over his long-term future at United earlier this season when, in a live phone-in, he said he believed that his current contract, which was due to expire at the end of this season, would be his last.
The statement astounded Ferguson and Gill who believed they had a verbal agreement in place to discuss the Cork-born star's future later in the year.
Almost immediately speculation surfaced that he would join Celtic in the summer, and in their official statement United have today made it clear that Keane is now free to sign 'a long-term deal with another club to enable him to secure his playing career beyond what would have been the end of his contract at United in the summer'.
While the relationship between Ferguson and Keane, which has proved to be such a bedrock of United's success down the years, has now been broken apparently beyond repair but the United manager, who breezed through this morning's media sessions without mentioning the dramatic developments about to unfold, was quick to pay tribute to Keane's contribution.
'Roy Keane has been a fantastic servant for Manchester United,' said Ferguson.
'The best midfield player in the world of his generation, he is already one of the great figures in our club's illustrious history.
'Roy has been central to the success of the club in the last 12 and a half years and everyone at Old Trafford wishes him well in the rest of his career and beyond.'
The last of Keane's 326 league appearances for United came at Anfield in September when he broke his foot late in the goalless draw with Liverpool.
The Irishman is thought to be close to a return to action although where it will be is now open to major debate.
Throughout his many triumphs at Old Trafford since his £3.75million arrival from Nottingham Forest in 1993 probably his greatest performance came in the Champions League semi-final second leg against Juventus in 1999 when he virtually singlehandedly rescued United from the brink of defeat to steer them into the final for the first time in 31 years.
His Herculean efforts came at a cost though as a booking picked up in the game meant he was suspended for the final, ensuring he missed United's greatest day in his time at the club.
'During my time at the club I have been fortunate to play alongside some of the best players in the game and in front of the best supporters in the world,' said Keane.
'At all times I have endeavoured to do my best for the management and the team.'
Never one to hold back when he felt standards were slipping Keane's frustration at United's current fall from grace has been evident for a while.
His annoyance is made worse by the knowledge he is no longer capable of rousing the Red Devils as he has done so often in the past.
Although many of United's fans were in agreement with his damning assessment of the current side's qualities, most would also acknowledge his direct criticism of individual players crossed the boundaries of acceptability.
It was left to Gill to administer the last rites on Keane's time at the club.
'Roy has been a towering figure at the club for over a decade,' said Gill.
'His dedication, talent and leadership have been qualities that have marked him out as one of the true greats.
'On behalf of everyone at the club we wish him every success in his future career.

My most horrible wk in nov 2005

2005-11-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Back to camp on monday and oh man, was damn busy! Had lots of paperworks that have to finish asap and guess what, my camp mates were damn irriating! They kept changing their duties, for some fuck reasons which i don't know whether were they speaking e truth. Can't they sort out themselves, yeah, i am e highest ranking, csm cum clerk, so what e fark. Come on guys, gimme a break! Tues came, guess what! OC came back due to admin stuffs. Everytime he's back in camp, he would take lots of shots at me! True enuff, he suaned me times and times on tue! Saying i am blur etc..wtf, u came back for 2 hrs only and u wan me to update u quickly b4 u go off and slack! what attitude u got in e 1st place! And oh yah, my camp mates were truly e good ones, left me lots of shits to handle with my oc too. WTF with e them! work till i sick man, kena flu! Lucky of me, wed to fri i am on off ! Wed got this tour trip with some jap pple coming to sg, bough them ard sg frm orchard to pple park complex. Quite friendly and talkative they were, a grp of 6 men ranging frm e age of 27 to 42 yrs old. Quite rich too as they stopped to shanghai then to sg!! mai siao siao. I couldn't speak jap but my fren does, had him be the middleman and using my hand signs a couple of times too. haa
Thurs came which is today now. My sister, my cute sister. She is jus sooo naughty, so bad, so rude and so..stubborn!! Had a quarrel with my dad due to her jus now. My parents stated this rule, "do not make my sister cry" or else she will get sick e next day. I sick of this rule as my sis would always do lots of bad stuffs and get away from it. Today my mum's working OT and my bro was out so left my dad and me looking after her. 8pm, my dad went to haf a nap and b4 he went off, he told my sis to ask me pour water for her if e cup of water is empty. My sister was watching this space show, pretty glued on it! I told her to fill up e cup coz i wanted her to hav a break from e tv. She say "daddy asked u to pour 1" This started e quarrel. The first time, i say go pour, she did not want. The 2nd time also with e same result then e 3rd time i say i am not going to pour at all! This lasted for 20 mins! I'm already quite angry at tis time! I switched off the tv instantly and told her, u shd study now. Initally she was ok then suddenly she cried. I started to scold her more as she would always threaten us with her cries! Then my dad woke up and scolded me, saying i shd not made my sister cry and etc..Really pissed me now! In e end, things were quite bad..i fed up with my dad! really i am! Other than this issue, there are a couple of issues that are related to me, to my family and to himself!

2005-11-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

dead drunk

2005-11-13T21:11:00.001+08:00

drunk

2005-11-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

whahah

2005-11-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

Birthday boy, dom!

Birthday boy at Devils

2005-11-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

Celebrated dom dom 21th birthday , my good poly fren at devils last nite! Omg, was very drunking experience as he treated us a bottle of volka + his friends there also bought 2 barrels of beer for themselves. Reaching there ard 11 after attending another friend birthday bbQ at simei!! Well, he was my bmt bunk mate and i kinda miss him..hee, anyway back to devils. Once inside, i rem the last time i went in was 1 year ago..lol. As dom and yuling never came here before, adrian and I showed them ard. The place wa quite big, on the 3rd flr was e dancing area. It was divided to 3 areas. The retro, techno and R&B. We got a table that dom fren had booked at the RnB. Drinking started before we reach and dom was already drunk till 40%, hehe! Gosh, two gers next to us were quite hot and apparently there were frens of dom frens. They went up to the bar and dance, the one with white blouse was quite pretty while e red 1 was wearing a mini skirt. Quite a sight! :p
Drinks were chattered at a speed that we could not handled hence in 45 mins time, i was e 1st guy who abit drunk then followed by yuling then dom. Freq toliet breaks and there was a photo taking with my new e350 in e loo! qoo huh..haha! That was in the first 2 hours! After 2hrs, guess who e drunk 1..yuling and adrian cannot make it liao while i was e sober 1..aha! Dom went home first and he vomited thrice and more on his way back home..lucky me i did not get myself vomit. In e end, yuling said he cannot make it liao and he want to go home..its on 3am! hai, that was early le..no choice, send him back on a cab. Was a wonderful nite with my poly mates..: )

I did not know when, how and why it started. I dreamt of her on friday night which it was strange because i already have no thoughts of her. In that dream, it was a lovely scene. We were still together, tugging on each other hands as we walked along a road. Whispering sweet words with her gentle voice into my ears, her big eyes shone to me. I was smittened. She hugged me back while i am leaning against a rail. In the end, we ought to go home but i was holding her hand back, just want to spend more time with her. Maybe subconciously upon subconciously i afraid of letting her go.
After e Devils nite while on e cab, i actually miss her. Emotions inside me was running amok, nearly jus nearly..
Reaching home, unable to control myself anymore. I did the unspeakable thing, i sms her. Wishing her well for her exam and hope she could cope with her exams that is coming. Yes, i told her abt my dream. Expected of her, there was no reply from her..better still :)